hello/goodbye
ok here go's i'm so bored right now i wish i had sumone to talk to but now days it seems i can't really talk to ne one about how i feel cuz everytyme i try to express my feelings i feel stupid for feeling the way i do and it hurts keepin all this shit inside ut i guess thats why i have a LJ so i can express myself here uh ? well i guess it helps to write all this shit down the thing is i act completely different from how i feel and idk why well maybe i do i jus don't wanna say cuz i'll feel stupid sumtymes i think i can tell my mom stuff but she jus makes it worst and the only person who ever made it better i never see him ne more and it sucks cuz it's like whats left but i learned i can't lean on other ppl but it's nice to knoe SUMONES there u knoe grrr and all i can do is sittin in my room and cry think about how much i hate being me even though i do admit my life's not that bad it's jus i feel like it is i feel like crap constantly and it sucks and then my self esteem lately has been low a fuck it's like no matter how hard i try i still look and feel like shit GGGrrr i can't stand myself i don't see how ne one else can @ the moment i wish sumone could tell me WHY ? i'm like this i hate it i jus start cryin 4 no reason wth .........
<3 jasmine ........... = (