Who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you'd bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Sometimes I know who I am. Sometimes I don't.
Sometimes I want to be everything I can be.
Sometimes I won't.
Sometimes showing love gets me hurt
Sometimes pretending not to feel joy eats up my soul
Like those little pacman from when I was young
Running circles round and round inside me
Running from the darkness that wants to crush it
But eating up the entire game in the process
I used to love that song, Iris, and the movie it came with
Remembering the dark angelic Nicolas Cage
The lost, lovable, broken Meg Ryan
Always wanting somebody to rescue me
So I could be myself again
So I could stop pretending that I don't feel love
That I don't feel happy
That I am not enjoying life
I look at myself, and I'm like this drop of water
In a sea of dark hearts
There is so much cruelty in the world
People hurt you just to know they can
It's because they've been hurt
Maybe you remind them of somebody that was cruel
in their long ago
So we all run around like the little pacman
Some of us not feeling
Some of us afraid to feel
Some of us mocking everybody who does feel
Some of us dying inside but afraid to tell
Some of us empty shells
Some of us broken
Some of us rescuing
My heart wants to rescue everybody but me
I wonder why so many people hate me because I love
I try to smother my love
I try to smother my gentleness
I try... for a moment, to be unfeeling
But really, I just want somebody to rescue me
from the land of make believe
So I can be who I was created to be
I want to love
I want to feel joy
I want to express it
and...
I want you to stfu if you don't like it
lol Yeah I'm sweet, full of love, full of gentleness..
Yeah... I admit it. That is me, but I will kick you in the ass with my fiesty spirit if you try to squash me now.
I RESCUE MYSELF!
I am my own hero.
So get off me, dark, desperate,
lonely people who want everybody to be as unhappy as you
Get off me
I'm a damn flower
I'm gonna bloom