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I suppose its time for an update... well that mite take a while. I have a lot to bring u up to speed on, dear readers.
First, starting last tuesday nite i got a headache. Then it woke me up at 5am wednesday before work and i took some excedrin migraine. Didnt help, but had to go to work. Kinda chilled as the day went on, but was back x10 on thursday morning. Woken up out of a sound sleep to PUKE. How gross? I was heaving over the trash can cuz julie was in the shower with the bathroom door locked. Then called my mom and told her what happened and she suggested i go to the urgent care center instead of work, being concerned it may be related to my back problems, AGAIN. so i call sobbing on the fone to my boss and call out of work sick. Went to the doc, sat and waited for an hour and finally was seen. He thawt it was just a migraine and sent me home with vicoden and phenergan for the nausea. Slept most of the day. Still decided to fly out that nite to go see my dad.
Get to providence and visit with dad and step mom. Awesome visit. We went to New Hampshire and all. It was so pretty, snowed every day we were there. How kewl is that? Took perty pics that ill post later. The headache was ok thru the weekend with the meds. Til we came back monday. The turbulence was so bad on the plane that i was getting sick again. Got off the plane and we're walking up and instead of jumping up and down out of pure happiness to see mom and jill, i burst into tears becuz i feel like shit. Mom takes me to the ER at 2am. Docs take forever to see me. But then one comes in. He WAS SO SMART. BUT NO. His shift was endin in like 2 mins so he had to leave and this old dumbass doctor came in instead. HE KNEW NOTHING! He even said he didnt kno what to do. So i got an injection of delotted and phenergan. Made me way lightheaded and dizzy. But dulled the headache. Had a cat scan of my head. It was clear. So dumb doc sent me home with percocet and an order to have an mri of my head/neck. Did that tuesday during the day, and jim drove me. Neck mri was perfectly fine. Head mri showed a polyp or cyst in my left sinus, which has to be removed. Ill see an ENT doc on the 23rd bout that. Otherwise the head mri was normal. Rite after those MRIs i went down to my reg doc. Told her i needed to have a lowback mri to check to see if it was tethered cord again. Had that mri on wednesday, which jim drove me to, too. Im not sposed to drive with narcotic drugs in my system. (WHATEVER) No tethered cord that the radiologist could see but multiple hernations/pertrusions and a nerve root impingement. Which explains the burning sensation in my tailbone and excrutiating pain in my rite hip. Referred me to a neurosurgeon. So i went home and slept sommore. Went to work thursday and worked thru the pain. Yesterday went to the doc for an injection of imatrex(for migraines). Made me sick. So they had me lay down for 30 mins. Helped the heached nada. Made me lightheaded and sick to my stomach. So then they made me stand up and hunch over for an injection in my left hip of phenergan and an injection in my rite hip of toridal for pain. Man they hurt! Long ass needles stabbing me in a sensitive spot as it is, not exactly my idea of a good day. SO yea, it killed the headache almost completely, and knocked me into a comalike sleep all nite. I was out like a light at 8:30, how sad is that? But the doc checked my eyes afterward and said my rite pupil is bigger than the left. ANd thats not normal, so shes questioning if its my pseudotumor problem again. Errrg. Referred me to a neurologist who may decide to make me seen an opthamologist.
WE DIDNT GET TO GO TO THE USED CONCERT! IM SO FUGGIN PISSED. MY HEADACHE WAS POUNDING AND BLASTIN MUSIC WOULDNT HAVE HELPED. BUT TAKING BACK SUNDAY NEVER SHOWED NEWAY. POO ON THEM FOR THINKIN THEY ARE TOO GOOD FOR RENO FOR THE 2ND TIME. I NO LONGER LIKE THEM. BLAH.
Which brings us to today. I am feeling better but the headache is slowly returning. Totally friggin sucks. Nothing is making it better. Had the health fair at work, total waste of time, like no one came. How lame. Small town, what do u expect? I didnt expect a good turnout, what a nice prediction that was. Prolly shoulda knocked on wood. Hmm.
Anyway. Im pissed at Kevin like woah. He was supposed to move here this weekend, but before i went to my dads we got in a big argument and he said to go and then we'd set a date. Rite, it took all week to just talk about it and we still dont have one. SO obviously hes not here. Now when i ask about the xmas party, WHICH IS NEXT WEEKEND MIND YOU, hes like, uh i cant come. Im like wtf ever dont listen to ur rents just go. Ur a damn adult. The boy has no backbone. He lets them treat him like shit. And he uses the excuse that he'll be kicked out, well they already said he needs to get out or join the military after the hearing next month. So yea, sounds to me like he cant get into any more trouble than hes already in, so whats the problem? Cept that hes full of bullshit? Nothing. Now im pissed becuz he is getting my nuthing for xmas becuz he was fired, has no money, and cant afford nething. But i only wanted 1 of 2 things that would cost him absolutely nothing. ONE, come the xmas party with me. OR TWO, get my damn ring back that his father took to pawn cuz hes an asshole. (Gee now i see where he gets it.) Does he do either? NO. And i sure as hell have a rite to be angry. Then he expects me to still buy him a 200$ gift and act like im ok with getting NOTHING in return? HELL NO. And im not saying that to be a bitch, ive given him two options of which is no cost to him, yet he cant manage ONE???? So hes like uh uh uh i dunno its like less time with my friends if i come see u. EXCUSE ME? Friends uve had for fucking 19 yrs now and we've had maybe 10 DAYS together total? Bullshit. All im askin for is 3 days and he cant give me that, when hes supposed to already be living here????? OMG IMA KILL HIM I SWEAR. So yea i told him he needs to call me back when he does kno something cuz its pissin me off to hear, um i dont know, 4 million times in a 5 minute convo. Thats all he has for an answer. Dont play me for a fool. Im not that dumb, my god. I mean, here i am, opening my home to him to try to help him when he has no where else to go after that happened, and hes fucking around about it. I love him, really i do, but sometimes i cant fucking stand how fucking worthless he is. Ugh. Tho ive said it so many times before, its moments like this i feel like saying fuck him and i cant stand it nemore, im out. But i wont. Cuz i hate being alone. Tho i liked being single for a while, sounding more appealing now.
Then to make matters better, i finally get a response from val in an IM. After asking, she said she was sorry for not calling in the 6 or so weeks we havent talked, but not that she would. She said amy turned her off to talkin on the fone cuz she always calls and whines or w/e. SO i am the one to suffer from that. Being that my best friend is 3000 miles away the only way i can relate to her IS to talk on the fone. How nice. So yea, im pissed about that too.
How is it that i end up with a bunch of people in my life that turn on me? And why is it that id rather hang onto what i have thats crappy, then let it go and be lonely. Because nothing is as bad as lonely. The sad part is, with the way things are anyhow, here i am lonely most of the time anyhow. All i can hope for is that she'll get over her fone issue(or amy will stop buggin her) and call, and kevin will finally get off his lazy ass and do something with his life. The two people i care about more than anything outside my family(who are my family anyway), i hardly get any time with them. That sucks more than anyone could possibly kno.
Well im done bitching now.
Luv,
~Jamie~
PS.... YOU HAVE TO HEAR THE SONG IM LISTENIN TO. SPEAKS EXACTLY HOW I FEEL WITH KEVIN.
First, starting last tuesday nite i got a headache. Then it woke me up at 5am wednesday before work and i took some excedrin migraine. Didnt help, but had to go to work. Kinda chilled as the day went on, but was back x10 on thursday morning. Woken up out of a sound sleep to PUKE. How gross? I was heaving over the trash can cuz julie was in the shower with the bathroom door locked. Then called my mom and told her what happened and she suggested i go to the urgent care center instead of work, being concerned it may be related to my back problems, AGAIN. so i call sobbing on the fone to my boss and call out of work sick. Went to the doc, sat and waited for an hour and finally was seen. He thawt it was just a migraine and sent me home with vicoden and phenergan for the nausea. Slept most of the day. Still decided to fly out that nite to go see my dad.
Get to providence and visit with dad and step mom. Awesome visit. We went to New Hampshire and all. It was so pretty, snowed every day we were there. How kewl is that? Took perty pics that ill post later. The headache was ok thru the weekend with the meds. Til we came back monday. The turbulence was so bad on the plane that i was getting sick again. Got off the plane and we're walking up and instead of jumping up and down out of pure happiness to see mom and jill, i burst into tears becuz i feel like shit. Mom takes me to the ER at 2am. Docs take forever to see me. But then one comes in. He WAS SO SMART. BUT NO. His shift was endin in like 2 mins so he had to leave and this old dumbass doctor came in instead. HE KNEW NOTHING! He even said he didnt kno what to do. So i got an injection of delotted and phenergan. Made me way lightheaded and dizzy. But dulled the headache. Had a cat scan of my head. It was clear. So dumb doc sent me home with percocet and an order to have an mri of my head/neck. Did that tuesday during the day, and jim drove me. Neck mri was perfectly fine. Head mri showed a polyp or cyst in my left sinus, which has to be removed. Ill see an ENT doc on the 23rd bout that. Otherwise the head mri was normal. Rite after those MRIs i went down to my reg doc. Told her i needed to have a lowback mri to check to see if it was tethered cord again. Had that mri on wednesday, which jim drove me to, too. Im not sposed to drive with narcotic drugs in my system. (WHATEVER) No tethered cord that the radiologist could see but multiple hernations/pertrusions and a nerve root impingement. Which explains the burning sensation in my tailbone and excrutiating pain in my rite hip. Referred me to a neurosurgeon. So i went home and slept sommore. Went to work thursday and worked thru the pain. Yesterday went to the doc for an injection of imatrex(for migraines). Made me sick. So they had me lay down for 30 mins. Helped the heached nada. Made me lightheaded and sick to my stomach. So then they made me stand up and hunch over for an injection in my left hip of phenergan and an injection in my rite hip of toridal for pain. Man they hurt! Long ass needles stabbing me in a sensitive spot as it is, not exactly my idea of a good day. SO yea, it killed the headache almost completely, and knocked me into a comalike sleep all nite. I was out like a light at 8:30, how sad is that? But the doc checked my eyes afterward and said my rite pupil is bigger than the left. ANd thats not normal, so shes questioning if its my pseudotumor problem again. Errrg. Referred me to a neurologist who may decide to make me seen an opthamologist.
WE DIDNT GET TO GO TO THE USED CONCERT! IM SO FUGGIN PISSED. MY HEADACHE WAS POUNDING AND BLASTIN MUSIC WOULDNT HAVE HELPED. BUT TAKING BACK SUNDAY NEVER SHOWED NEWAY. POO ON THEM FOR THINKIN THEY ARE TOO GOOD FOR RENO FOR THE 2ND TIME. I NO LONGER LIKE THEM. BLAH.
Which brings us to today. I am feeling better but the headache is slowly returning. Totally friggin sucks. Nothing is making it better. Had the health fair at work, total waste of time, like no one came. How lame. Small town, what do u expect? I didnt expect a good turnout, what a nice prediction that was. Prolly shoulda knocked on wood. Hmm.
Anyway. Im pissed at Kevin like woah. He was supposed to move here this weekend, but before i went to my dads we got in a big argument and he said to go and then we'd set a date. Rite, it took all week to just talk about it and we still dont have one. SO obviously hes not here. Now when i ask about the xmas party, WHICH IS NEXT WEEKEND MIND YOU, hes like, uh i cant come. Im like wtf ever dont listen to ur rents just go. Ur a damn adult. The boy has no backbone. He lets them treat him like shit. And he uses the excuse that he'll be kicked out, well they already said he needs to get out or join the military after the hearing next month. So yea, sounds to me like he cant get into any more trouble than hes already in, so whats the problem? Cept that hes full of bullshit? Nothing. Now im pissed becuz he is getting my nuthing for xmas becuz he was fired, has no money, and cant afford nething. But i only wanted 1 of 2 things that would cost him absolutely nothing. ONE, come the xmas party with me. OR TWO, get my damn ring back that his father took to pawn cuz hes an asshole. (Gee now i see where he gets it.) Does he do either? NO. And i sure as hell have a rite to be angry. Then he expects me to still buy him a 200$ gift and act like im ok with getting NOTHING in return? HELL NO. And im not saying that to be a bitch, ive given him two options of which is no cost to him, yet he cant manage ONE???? So hes like uh uh uh i dunno its like less time with my friends if i come see u. EXCUSE ME? Friends uve had for fucking 19 yrs now and we've had maybe 10 DAYS together total? Bullshit. All im askin for is 3 days and he cant give me that, when hes supposed to already be living here????? OMG IMA KILL HIM I SWEAR. So yea i told him he needs to call me back when he does kno something cuz its pissin me off to hear, um i dont know, 4 million times in a 5 minute convo. Thats all he has for an answer. Dont play me for a fool. Im not that dumb, my god. I mean, here i am, opening my home to him to try to help him when he has no where else to go after that happened, and hes fucking around about it. I love him, really i do, but sometimes i cant fucking stand how fucking worthless he is. Ugh. Tho ive said it so many times before, its moments like this i feel like saying fuck him and i cant stand it nemore, im out. But i wont. Cuz i hate being alone. Tho i liked being single for a while, sounding more appealing now.
Then to make matters better, i finally get a response from val in an IM. After asking, she said she was sorry for not calling in the 6 or so weeks we havent talked, but not that she would. She said amy turned her off to talkin on the fone cuz she always calls and whines or w/e. SO i am the one to suffer from that. Being that my best friend is 3000 miles away the only way i can relate to her IS to talk on the fone. How nice. So yea, im pissed about that too.
How is it that i end up with a bunch of people in my life that turn on me? And why is it that id rather hang onto what i have thats crappy, then let it go and be lonely. Because nothing is as bad as lonely. The sad part is, with the way things are anyhow, here i am lonely most of the time anyhow. All i can hope for is that she'll get over her fone issue(or amy will stop buggin her) and call, and kevin will finally get off his lazy ass and do something with his life. The two people i care about more than anything outside my family(who are my family anyway), i hardly get any time with them. That sucks more than anyone could possibly kno.
Well im done bitching now.
Luv,
~Jamie~
PS.... YOU HAVE TO HEAR THE SONG IM LISTENIN TO. SPEAKS EXACTLY HOW I FEEL WITH KEVIN.