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i think im going through some kinda psycotic episode, im like throwing up and like freaking out and paranoid and shit, im really scared now, my mother had to come and pick me up from school, i freaked out in the Caf...im really worried, last night i was like crying and i like almost never cry...ive just got too much shit going on lately...im dying slowly, from the inside out, and i dont understand anything anymore...im worried about me, i dont like me anymore, i dont want to be my firend, i dont play nice, I HATE ME, AND YOU SHOULD TOO!!!! im not dead, but im not really living, im numb to everything now, im not a person anymore...im frekin out... i cant feel my body, when my arms hurt, i stop feeling them, so when my heart broke, i stopped feeling all together, but now, i can feel again, and its killing me, my heart only hurts when its beating and i want to stop the pain, i could do it, i really could...it would just end all of this...all the pain, for me and him...