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im worried about him, i think he's hiding something from me. im sitting here talking to him, and he just stopped when i asked him what Rachel has done to him lately, and he just stopped talking, im really starting to worry. i guess im worried that hes going to break up with me for Rachel, im afriad that im losing him...to HER. i HATE her and it hurts to think about losing him to her. i dont want to lose him, for any reason, but especially not to her. and i think thats just whats happening. my body is crumbeling from within, it hurts, and i dont want it to hurt anymore, i just am not ready to lose him yet. i need him, and that makes me weak, but its the truth, its all i want, to be with him. i love him, and id hate to lose him like this, because shes closer! i feel like im losing a part of myself, my heart.