(no subject)

[luvingtohateu]

Friends...there weird creatures. anytime i meantion the word "boyfriend", even if im not talking about scott,Caler looks like he's going to have an annurism, and Zeek shoots me eye daggers, after church we were supposed to eat food (that church-goers prepared in there own kitchens) downstairs in the fellowship hall, the older "kids" eat on the stairs (well, i didnt eat, i had a glass of lemonade), but while i was sitting there Caler asked why i tell scott i love him (he got my servey email that i just sent to my contact list, i forgot they were on my contact list), Betta mentioned that Scott is the one i say i love, and Caler asked me...I wanted to drown myself in my lemonade...if i could feel, i would have been embarassed, but i dont feel, but i felt like i should have been embarassed. Why do my friends hate Scott? Morga thinks im letting him CONTROL me! Betta thinks im playing myself, she says its too easy for him to cheat on me. Creek haas no reason to hate Scott, but she doesnt like that i talk to him so much. Caler is like my older brother...And Zeek just has a problem. and church sucked, they made me play games, but i played them. I wore all black for once (yay...me) and everyone looked at me like the roof was going to fall in on me. Someone asked who's funerial i was going to i was like "im mourning the death of the last person who didnt like my cloths" that shut them up, but i hated church, they have no respect for personal space.

Contact...BJ wouldnt stop hugging me, Creek wouldnt stop patting me on the back, Zeek kept putting his arm around my shoulders and squeezing me, Bonnie( Z&C's mom) squeezed my shoulders, and aout 12 little kids hugged me for no apparent reason. People need to stop squeezing me, im going to break.