sucks living today
Friday i went to the hospital and wow! big surprise i saw my mom and dad. That was about the most weirdest thing ive ever felt in my whole life. I said hi, my mom gave me a hug and my dad shook my hands. He said; so hows college? i didn't know what to say at first i guess i was still in shock. Anyway told him it was ok although he doesn't know that i'm no longer at UCLA. I didn't want to tell him for peace sake. When i'm gonna tell him? I have no idea. My aunts status is still TBD to be determined or no change of status. The rest of my moms family arrived later. Boy that was very interesting. Sometimes i wish i wasn't part of my family. Someone always ruins the moment of family peace. I went home talked to Heidi and Mom. When you read this, if it still worth something i just want to say that i'm sorry for disrespecting you, i'm sorry for hurting you and i hope you believe me if not ill understand. Well this is end of friday. Saturday i woke up around 930 took a shower and waited for Heidi's call. She called around 1045 and I talked to her for a bit. I got a call from the hospital about my aunt. I saw my family and yes i saw my dad. I guess its safe to say that i hate being part of my family. I've always thought that medicine and god always works together making miracles. I didn't see god today or miracles. I watched her go away slowly and the sad part my family still can't get along. Does someone need to die so they can all get along? Well my dad played the smartest physician and debated about what should be done. I didn't know either to scream or just walk out. I can't believe he can be a f*&*$%g asshole. It sucks to be me, i hate being me. How much i wish christmas never happened. I got home talked to Heidi and Mike for a bit. Heidi went to the dance and i watched the movie signs. Wow didn't know a diaper head guy directed that movie. Kristen & Heidi got home around 1055. I talked to her for a bit then ....then just went ohh well im tired. Have fun all