uuuggghhhh..
omg, i am never going to drink again. ok, thats a lie.
i had way to much to drink last night. and i made a fucking ASS of myself. i fucked things up with someone who i really care about. i'm getting good at that. why do i always screw things up for myself? sometimes i think my subconscious does it by instict.
anyway, me and Katie went to Jenny's around 6:00 or so. we started drinking early. Jose Quervo is my new boyfriend..=] i left a very drunken message on his phone. i am an idiot. then we left to go to Robs house but it was boring over there so we left and went to McDonald's just to get some drinks. ran into a few people we knew..but what else is new? lol. then Tex and Lex called us and they came and picked our drunken asses up and we went back to his house. drank some more. i still dont know what it was. i should ask him. whatever it was it was good enough for me to drink the entire bottle. but after we had been there for like an hour Jenny called some guys and they went over there. so when they got there me and Jen left with them because it was not a good idea for me to stay there with the condition i was in. i would only fuck things up more. so we left and stayed out for the rest of the night. drank Crown Royal..i think thats what it was. so around 5:30 in the morning we decided we should probably leave because we didnt want her mom to realize we werent there. so we went to get in the car and my drunk ass puked. ugh, gross. so we got to her house around 6:00-6:15..we were coming from Baymeadows. climbed in her window..well in my case, fell in. that was funny. then we talked a little bit and crashed. slept for a few hours and she was off to work at 10:00. other than me fucking everything up for myself and losing someone i really care about..it was overall an ok night.
i wish i could be one of those people who just dont care. i admire them. they have no feelings. they never get hurt..they never have to worry about ever being hurt by someone they care about because they dont care about anyone. that would be perfect. they never have to sit there in bed at night wondering what he/she is doing..who they are talking to..they just dont care. i wish i could be like that. that way..i would never worry about that stuff. and it would be great. but since im not that person..thats why there is Jose baby.. <3
to a few certain people :: dont fucking blame people before you know that god damn truth. go choke on a fucking dick.
i had way to much to drink last night. and i made a fucking ASS of myself. i fucked things up with someone who i really care about. i'm getting good at that. why do i always screw things up for myself? sometimes i think my subconscious does it by instict.
anyway, me and Katie went to Jenny's around 6:00 or so. we started drinking early. Jose Quervo is my new boyfriend..=] i left a very drunken message on his phone. i am an idiot. then we left to go to Robs house but it was boring over there so we left and went to McDonald's just to get some drinks. ran into a few people we knew..but what else is new? lol. then Tex and Lex called us and they came and picked our drunken asses up and we went back to his house. drank some more. i still dont know what it was. i should ask him. whatever it was it was good enough for me to drink the entire bottle. but after we had been there for like an hour Jenny called some guys and they went over there. so when they got there me and Jen left with them because it was not a good idea for me to stay there with the condition i was in. i would only fuck things up more. so we left and stayed out for the rest of the night. drank Crown Royal..i think thats what it was. so around 5:30 in the morning we decided we should probably leave because we didnt want her mom to realize we werent there. so we went to get in the car and my drunk ass puked. ugh, gross. so we got to her house around 6:00-6:15..we were coming from Baymeadows. climbed in her window..well in my case, fell in. that was funny. then we talked a little bit and crashed. slept for a few hours and she was off to work at 10:00. other than me fucking everything up for myself and losing someone i really care about..it was overall an ok night.
i wish i could be one of those people who just dont care. i admire them. they have no feelings. they never get hurt..they never have to worry about ever being hurt by someone they care about because they dont care about anyone. that would be perfect. they never have to sit there in bed at night wondering what he/she is doing..who they are talking to..they just dont care. i wish i could be like that. that way..i would never worry about that stuff. and it would be great. but since im not that person..thats why there is Jose baby.. <3
to a few certain people :: dont fucking blame people before you know that god damn truth. go choke on a fucking dick.