the more you ignore me the closer i get...
to fucking shanking your ass. that seems to be my term of choice lately. im really confused at this point in my life. everything is going in different directions and i cant seem to keep up. i hate my school work and im bummed ill be here an extra year after all my other friends are gone. i dont even really know what im going to do after school is over which terrifies the hell out of me. i hate that after this year the majority of my friends are gonna spread across the state and country. ill miss them terribly and i really dont know what ill do without them. my relationships with all of them have been changing. im getting close to others and pulling away from the rest. i cant help it and im sorry, its my problem, trust me. i guess my relationships in general are all going all over the place. with dating i dont know whats going on. im not in a dating relationship, im in a limbo relationship. i have so much fun with the kid but im so confused with whats going on. id ask but im far too chicken shit to actually do that. i guess im just following mel and her plan with dave, she doesnt know whats going on, but shes not gonna fuck up what is going on by making it worse by asking.
eh off that shit, ill get to my last weekend, which im sorry, actually rocked. i havent had a whole good weekend in....hell a year at least. friday i went to madison for a hockey game, god i miss hockey. it was a lot of fun...i could do without the coma inducing ice cream though. its so easy to talk to andrew i just wish i knew why i am always such a douchebag. saturday chris and chris came up and we really just wanted to have a small home party, thank you snow for keeping us from the bars! jon and nicole are so cute! seriously most adorable couple ever. that night was made perfect of course by kayla shooting boy chris in the bare back with a paintball gun. too bad it fucked up our garage. whoops. then onto sunday, the chicago trip. god i love those girls. i had a blast and got a lot of great pictures. im so glad i had that weekend and that this weekend i get to go to dekalb with kayla to visit matt and eric. saturday night i got nothing and sunday will be reserved for homework and those damn trick or treaters i think but still this weekend will be good due to the lack of work...which will start over next weekend. crap.
eh off that shit, ill get to my last weekend, which im sorry, actually rocked. i havent had a whole good weekend in....hell a year at least. friday i went to madison for a hockey game, god i miss hockey. it was a lot of fun...i could do without the coma inducing ice cream though. its so easy to talk to andrew i just wish i knew why i am always such a douchebag. saturday chris and chris came up and we really just wanted to have a small home party, thank you snow for keeping us from the bars! jon and nicole are so cute! seriously most adorable couple ever. that night was made perfect of course by kayla shooting boy chris in the bare back with a paintball gun. too bad it fucked up our garage. whoops. then onto sunday, the chicago trip. god i love those girls. i had a blast and got a lot of great pictures. im so glad i had that weekend and that this weekend i get to go to dekalb with kayla to visit matt and eric. saturday night i got nothing and sunday will be reserved for homework and those damn trick or treaters i think but still this weekend will be good due to the lack of work...which will start over next weekend. crap.