The Blushing Ego
Praise isn't easy for me to take. I just do what i do. When i love doing what i do, it shows. It will be three years since i've started teaching at the first gym. When i started i was only to sub, but 3 days later i was called in to take over three classes. That was overwhelming in itself. I was very green in teaching adults, had a ton of experience teaching children. So i went with it. The classes grew, the classes dwindled. New people came in, regulars left, new people left, regulars came back. Ebs and flow of feeling my place in this new experience. Overtime i've gotten tons of compliments. I never let them go to my head because i just think people are being nice or just kind.
The universe was speaking to me again today and today i just accepted it. The ego accepted it, and although it didn't go overboard, i embraced it. I was speaking to A2 about the prenatal yoga class at Kripalu and she believes i need to go for it. Out of the blue she mentions that many of the clients have said how much they enjoy my classes when i have subbed for someone else. How they enjoy the class more than the regularly scheduled teacher. I have to take that compliment and hold on to it close to my heart for those days when i question where i am at. It was unexpected. What was more surprising was the woman , Cardio Queen, who walked into the door 1 minute after A2 said what she did. The woman did not hear a word because she was outside still walking in from the sidewalk. Out of the blue Cardio Queen mentions that she's heard good things about my class and teaching. This was a comment unprovoked. I mentioned to the woman that she has taken my class before. She remembered but i think she backed off of coming because she wasn't good at it. (Although i make my class acceptable and do able for all bodies, this woman is a Cardio Queen and i don't think yoga is her cuppa. She spends at least an hour and a half on two different cardio machines every morning. Sometimes i wish i had her cardio stamina.)
I guess with the whole debate of the Kripalu trip, money issues, and such i started to question my path just a little. And sometimes that will come up. I always wonder how in the world do people afford to keep taking tons of classes and going on to the next step without really exploring and making money with the step they just did. I'm talking about the mates who finished YTT, go on two months later and did their 500 hrs, then go on and completely Nutrition schooling. Or how people can do this and afford trips all around the place. I'm just struggling to pay my bills and build a business. I do wonder if i am good enough and can stustain clients not only in yoga but in massage. Without yoga, i wouldn't be able to afford anything.
There is a path that i am suppose to be on. And i do think it is unfolding, abet slowly, before me. Sometimes it gets frustrating. And some days, like today's small ego boost makes the journey a bit bareable.
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I should be in bed right now, but i have a private yoga client who used to take my classes at the gym. It's been almost a year since he's been in a class, he opted to take a painting class during that time but wanted to continue yoga. So i have to prepare handouts for him to take home. It's a postive sign. He called out of left field. And internally i did question if i should focus more on privates like that yoga business website/forum i found. I do think things are going to turn around for me. And i do think they will once the website goes live.
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I'm nervous about my office space mate. she hasn't said much to me in a while, and recently started a new business. but when i go to her website it doesn't appear and mentions lack of payment. and the landlord let it slip, when i asked to pay my rent on thursday instead of the 15 because i would be in the office then, let it slip that she hasn't paid rent in two months. it makes me nervous because she twice has made the decision to put massage therapy on hold. and both of those times i had two people interested in the space. then she changed her mind and stayed in business. her plans were to take the MotherMassage course i took last year and focus in on prental massage because she wanted a niche. great. but with the rent thing and the website thing...i'm curious if she plans to back out again or follow through. her business is really none of mine, but i like sharing a space with her. it's like a roommate, you need to have someone responsible. i would hate to have a stranger in there.
The universe was speaking to me again today and today i just accepted it. The ego accepted it, and although it didn't go overboard, i embraced it. I was speaking to A2 about the prenatal yoga class at Kripalu and she believes i need to go for it. Out of the blue she mentions that many of the clients have said how much they enjoy my classes when i have subbed for someone else. How they enjoy the class more than the regularly scheduled teacher. I have to take that compliment and hold on to it close to my heart for those days when i question where i am at. It was unexpected. What was more surprising was the woman , Cardio Queen, who walked into the door 1 minute after A2 said what she did. The woman did not hear a word because she was outside still walking in from the sidewalk. Out of the blue Cardio Queen mentions that she's heard good things about my class and teaching. This was a comment unprovoked. I mentioned to the woman that she has taken my class before. She remembered but i think she backed off of coming because she wasn't good at it. (Although i make my class acceptable and do able for all bodies, this woman is a Cardio Queen and i don't think yoga is her cuppa. She spends at least an hour and a half on two different cardio machines every morning. Sometimes i wish i had her cardio stamina.)
I guess with the whole debate of the Kripalu trip, money issues, and such i started to question my path just a little. And sometimes that will come up. I always wonder how in the world do people afford to keep taking tons of classes and going on to the next step without really exploring and making money with the step they just did. I'm talking about the mates who finished YTT, go on two months later and did their 500 hrs, then go on and completely Nutrition schooling. Or how people can do this and afford trips all around the place. I'm just struggling to pay my bills and build a business. I do wonder if i am good enough and can stustain clients not only in yoga but in massage. Without yoga, i wouldn't be able to afford anything.
There is a path that i am suppose to be on. And i do think it is unfolding, abet slowly, before me. Sometimes it gets frustrating. And some days, like today's small ego boost makes the journey a bit bareable.
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I should be in bed right now, but i have a private yoga client who used to take my classes at the gym. It's been almost a year since he's been in a class, he opted to take a painting class during that time but wanted to continue yoga. So i have to prepare handouts for him to take home. It's a postive sign. He called out of left field. And internally i did question if i should focus more on privates like that yoga business website/forum i found. I do think things are going to turn around for me. And i do think they will once the website goes live.
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I'm nervous about my office space mate. she hasn't said much to me in a while, and recently started a new business. but when i go to her website it doesn't appear and mentions lack of payment. and the landlord let it slip, when i asked to pay my rent on thursday instead of the 15 because i would be in the office then, let it slip that she hasn't paid rent in two months. it makes me nervous because she twice has made the decision to put massage therapy on hold. and both of those times i had two people interested in the space. then she changed her mind and stayed in business. her plans were to take the MotherMassage course i took last year and focus in on prental massage because she wanted a niche. great. but with the rent thing and the website thing...i'm curious if she plans to back out again or follow through. her business is really none of mine, but i like sharing a space with her. it's like a roommate, you need to have someone responsible. i would hate to have a stranger in there.