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It's effin New Year's Eve and I'm here, at home, and I'm sober. How lame.
What better way to bring in the New Year than to get wasted, bitches! And I can't do that....but hopefully I'll be able to later this week- before school starts again! Ahhh!
It doesn't feel like the end of the year, at all. So much, that it's an impalpable realization. I have changed a lot, that's for damn sure. I'm not who I was when I turned 15...or even 16 for that matter. Hell, everyone has change and those changes are what scare me...
Why? Well, because not many people seem to notice them. And because no matter what, time just keeps rolling on...and on...and on.
I don't even want to make an attempt at picturing myself in a couple of years...if I'll even be alive. (
(knock on wood)
I still have some shit to take care of, and it just seems to get harder every day. It's depressing to realize that you are one twisted mother. ("To all the ladies in the place with style grace...") Heh. I like Biggie. What I like about time, though, is that in most cases a greater sense of maturity comes into play and you learn to accept everyday occurences and so forth with actual ACCEPTANCE, and not disdain or the actual blaming of others for your mistakes. (run on sentences, bit me.) Of course, it always sucks to know that you have fucked up, but that bit of acceptance is, in a way, reassurance.
I always wished I could just be a gypsy. I would be free and graceful and could wear utterly amazing clothes. The gypsies that television and books speak of, anyway. They always seem so beautiful to me. I think that maybe it's just that spirit that they seem to have, somehwat magical...but then again, I have never met a REAL gypsy, so I wouldn't know. schwing.
Ah...This song is amazing. Props to the Gypsy Kings, bitches. And Jose Feliciano. They are all I have been listening to for the past 3 hours. Oh, and Miles...but he's been scarce being that Milagro is in a guitar-lovin' kinda mood.
And thank you ADD god for blessing me with the totally random topics I transcribed!
hehe, Happy New Year's, bitches! Oh! And drink a vitamin when you wake up to cure your fucking hangovers! I swear, it works like a charm.