Random Thoughts
-I didnt go to both labs today, which fucks me over a little, but I rather pass my A&P test
-I pray I do well on my A&P test, I have too. If not for my grades, but for me.
-Being cheated on is the worst feeling in the world, but it could be so much worse
-I appriciate and love my mom a whole lot more since the break up because shes been through the same thing, only so much worse
-I hate Noel more than anyone I know and he needs to stop playing games with my heart and head. Im done with it.
-I needed that call to realize what a soulless prick he is. Im glad it happened.
-Im going out of state for school next year the minute i find out i got into a nursing program. I need a new start. Im sick of NOVA.
-I hate going to school because I am so miserable. Dont get me wrong, im happy im able to go a college at all, but it's so expensive and my advisor really fucked me over with my scheduale for this semester.
-Im trying so hard to get my act together. But im just so tired and i hate seeing my mom work so hard and my brother while im here bitching about school. So, Im really trying. I just wish I became part time this semester so I could help my family.
-I haven't seen my dad in 6 years or talked to him in half a year. And by talking, that means e-mail. If he thinks im this bitch, whore daughter, then so be it, but i didn't leave a family for some hoe in TX.
-I feel like this place slowly kills you, so Im trying to fight back and be happy. Which I am for the most part, but some days it's hard.
-I sometimes think, that i loved noel so much that i made myself believe it was the only good thing in my life, and for awhile it was, but when he did what he did i sometimes feel like im left with nothing, which shouldn't ever be the case. But it's hard when love is such a strong feeling and it consumes you. Its the greatest feeling and when you lose it, it's hard. But, like i said, it could be so much worse. So, Ill be fine.
-Im a tough girl though. Ive been through alot, more than most girls my age, and im proud of everything. Im not like most girls and im really proud of it. Someday ill find someone who can see that and knows im one of a kind. But for right now im content with life. Ive been kickboxing alot lately, running till it hurts, and of course dancing. I feel and look alot better than i think i ever have.
-I hate being a girl when it comes to having a crush on someone. I don't want to BS with anyone anymore, but at the same time Im still a girl that's scared of rejection and doesn't know what lies ahead. Whatever, im going with the flow.
-All good things take time, so i just have to be patient.
-Im so excited to be at the beach in Nov. and new years.
-I took a "power nap" and when i woke up i thought there was snow outside for some reason so i was so happy untill i found out i was insane.
-I leave for PA in 5 days!!!!
-Bloom and York are so far tops for me in PA. More Bloom..because it's safer. Ill apply real soon.
-I am happy, despite my post sounding a little emo.
I should study, but Ill eat dinner and finish King of Queens first.
xox
-I pray I do well on my A&P test, I have too. If not for my grades, but for me.
-Being cheated on is the worst feeling in the world, but it could be so much worse
-I appriciate and love my mom a whole lot more since the break up because shes been through the same thing, only so much worse
-I hate Noel more than anyone I know and he needs to stop playing games with my heart and head. Im done with it.
-I needed that call to realize what a soulless prick he is. Im glad it happened.
-Im going out of state for school next year the minute i find out i got into a nursing program. I need a new start. Im sick of NOVA.
-I hate going to school because I am so miserable. Dont get me wrong, im happy im able to go a college at all, but it's so expensive and my advisor really fucked me over with my scheduale for this semester.
-Im trying so hard to get my act together. But im just so tired and i hate seeing my mom work so hard and my brother while im here bitching about school. So, Im really trying. I just wish I became part time this semester so I could help my family.
-I haven't seen my dad in 6 years or talked to him in half a year. And by talking, that means e-mail. If he thinks im this bitch, whore daughter, then so be it, but i didn't leave a family for some hoe in TX.
-I feel like this place slowly kills you, so Im trying to fight back and be happy. Which I am for the most part, but some days it's hard.
-I sometimes think, that i loved noel so much that i made myself believe it was the only good thing in my life, and for awhile it was, but when he did what he did i sometimes feel like im left with nothing, which shouldn't ever be the case. But it's hard when love is such a strong feeling and it consumes you. Its the greatest feeling and when you lose it, it's hard. But, like i said, it could be so much worse. So, Ill be fine.
-Im a tough girl though. Ive been through alot, more than most girls my age, and im proud of everything. Im not like most girls and im really proud of it. Someday ill find someone who can see that and knows im one of a kind. But for right now im content with life. Ive been kickboxing alot lately, running till it hurts, and of course dancing. I feel and look alot better than i think i ever have.
-I hate being a girl when it comes to having a crush on someone. I don't want to BS with anyone anymore, but at the same time Im still a girl that's scared of rejection and doesn't know what lies ahead. Whatever, im going with the flow.
-All good things take time, so i just have to be patient.
-Im so excited to be at the beach in Nov. and new years.
-I took a "power nap" and when i woke up i thought there was snow outside for some reason so i was so happy untill i found out i was insane.
-I leave for PA in 5 days!!!!
-Bloom and York are so far tops for me in PA. More Bloom..because it's safer. Ill apply real soon.
-I am happy, despite my post sounding a little emo.
I should study, but Ill eat dinner and finish King of Queens first.
xox