this is what it feels like to be a prisoner under a spell

[luvcottonballs]

getting chills up and down my spine
being here isnt fine
cold feet
hands shaking
loud noises
people screaming,
no paintings on the wall
no pictures at that at all
no friends
no freedom
cant sleep
not like you want to
hungary and dont want to eat
the food tastes like shit
i dont even want to breathe
never talking about it
this is the first
talking on a phone doesnt help
i just wanted out
it felt like hell
never going back
i cant stand that place
ive learned my lesson
cold feet
shaking hands does this ring a bell
i hope not
i cant imagine any place worst
i felt like i couldnt breathe
its sucks to know
i did this to myself
with no help
im out now
and thats all that matters
i can breath
i am me
sometime i wish
i wasnt here
i wish i could float away
and do things better
i wish
i wasnt me