If life's not beautiful without the pain
Well I'd just rather never even see beauty again
well im starting to think that my karma is just so shitty for this year and maybe 2006 will bring on the happiness. its just the same old entry on a different date. i havent caught a break in so long. not even in the stupid shit like rushing a sorority. i feel like as much progression ive made with myself whenever i close my eyes i still recall every insecurity i have. i dont know what it is and all i really want is for it to go away. i want to be okay with who i am regardless of any outside influences.
i see these people in amazing relationships and all i want is to feel someones arms around me holding me. i feel like nothing else would matter if i had that. i would have a bonus support system other then my parents or friends. and then there are those people that just dont understand how good they have it. i dunno. im just in one of those moods i spose...
its only september...who knows what the rest of these months will bring....
one
ps. its so sad how people move on so quickly and how a day which once held so much meaning has dwindled into nothing...
well im starting to think that my karma is just so shitty for this year and maybe 2006 will bring on the happiness. its just the same old entry on a different date. i havent caught a break in so long. not even in the stupid shit like rushing a sorority. i feel like as much progression ive made with myself whenever i close my eyes i still recall every insecurity i have. i dont know what it is and all i really want is for it to go away. i want to be okay with who i am regardless of any outside influences.
i see these people in amazing relationships and all i want is to feel someones arms around me holding me. i feel like nothing else would matter if i had that. i would have a bonus support system other then my parents or friends. and then there are those people that just dont understand how good they have it. i dunno. im just in one of those moods i spose...
its only september...who knows what the rest of these months will bring....
one
ps. its so sad how people move on so quickly and how a day which once held so much meaning has dwindled into nothing...