Times are changing...
Wow. ABout my not updating this in montttths. I just felt the need to write everything down. So, here it goes...
The thing is, what really bothers me is how you guys judge me. Let see... we have gone to school together for how long? and you guys still dont understand where im coming from, or even try. You know just as well as I that this realtionship wouldnt be happening if I didnt know what I was getting myself into. I know whats happening to me, and if you guys r going to judge me on how I live my own life, and how I put trust in someone that maybe you dont... go right ahead, but its your loss.
Graduation. Lets think... a time in our life when we r forced to say goodbye to everything we have ever known. This is the time in our lives when everyone any one has ever taught is... comes into play. We r leaving our comfort zone and moving onto a more serious, and crazy lifestyle. Going to college is like being born... seriously. We r put in a environment that we have never seen before, and are forced to do so if we really want to do something with our lives. Im just really dreading the day we walk across that stage. It means that we r really growing up, and that we are going to have to make decisions that could make or break our entire future. Not to mention leaving every single person that as alwayz been there for you, and you went through so much with. We r forced to meet all new friends and begin life in a new perspective, and make something of ourselves. So many emotions are going to fly that day, I am just really scared :/
Lately I have been drifting from almost everyone I know. I wish it were summer time again where everything was laid back and there wasnt any drama to deal with. THe days were long, we had freedom to just do what we want... and we didnt have to worry about school. Speaking of summer... this one coming up is the last summer of mine in H.S... how crazy is that?!?! In just a matter of time im going to be a Senior in Ferndale High, enjoying all those luxuries of holding that position. how exciting...
ANyways... back to drifting. I just dont talk to any of the ppl I used too. Ive kinda realized that I do need to talk to more ppl or else this next year and a half are going to be bland. High school is supposed to be the best time years of your life and I am determined to make them this.
Remember When...
We used to walk around alll day, and have no destination, yet still manage to have fun?
We used to hangout at my house until 2am and my parents just didnt care.
Those long summer nights when you guys would stay out all night and my house was the hot spot.
Trying to be devious but getting caught at everything we did.
Staying home alone at my house while my parents were Up North and just hanging out.
My brother used to think you lived at my house, and asked me where you were whenever you werent over.
We rode our bikes to down by Hilton and you all jump that random ramp down there.
I would ride halfway to your house with Rj and them just so we could get a chance to hangout.
We would sit in your basement and just watch movies and hangout all day long.
We all could hangout without you guys fighting, or something coming up.
We could just sit in my room and take random naps while listening to music.
I would hear rocks thrown at my window, and a bunch of ppl being at my house at the crack of dawn ready to hangout.
We could spend hours talking on the phone, every night... without losing things to talk about.
I could tell you anything and everything, no matter who it was about.
You came to my house when we had the huge Black out and we hungout in the pool and on kaitlans trampoline.
My front porch was the place to watch movies.
We could just meet half way and randomly make our cookies, or walk around.
We used to hangout everyday, no matter what happened.
... those were the days.
*(sry guys. My LJ cut isnt working)*
Now its 10:00 and ive accomplished what I have been wanting to do for a few days now. Hopefully I will find more time to update again, but thats it for now :D
<3 much love.
The thing is, what really bothers me is how you guys judge me. Let see... we have gone to school together for how long? and you guys still dont understand where im coming from, or even try. You know just as well as I that this realtionship wouldnt be happening if I didnt know what I was getting myself into. I know whats happening to me, and if you guys r going to judge me on how I live my own life, and how I put trust in someone that maybe you dont... go right ahead, but its your loss.
Graduation. Lets think... a time in our life when we r forced to say goodbye to everything we have ever known. This is the time in our lives when everyone any one has ever taught is... comes into play. We r leaving our comfort zone and moving onto a more serious, and crazy lifestyle. Going to college is like being born... seriously. We r put in a environment that we have never seen before, and are forced to do so if we really want to do something with our lives. Im just really dreading the day we walk across that stage. It means that we r really growing up, and that we are going to have to make decisions that could make or break our entire future. Not to mention leaving every single person that as alwayz been there for you, and you went through so much with. We r forced to meet all new friends and begin life in a new perspective, and make something of ourselves. So many emotions are going to fly that day, I am just really scared :/
Lately I have been drifting from almost everyone I know. I wish it were summer time again where everything was laid back and there wasnt any drama to deal with. THe days were long, we had freedom to just do what we want... and we didnt have to worry about school. Speaking of summer... this one coming up is the last summer of mine in H.S... how crazy is that?!?! In just a matter of time im going to be a Senior in Ferndale High, enjoying all those luxuries of holding that position. how exciting...
ANyways... back to drifting. I just dont talk to any of the ppl I used too. Ive kinda realized that I do need to talk to more ppl or else this next year and a half are going to be bland. High school is supposed to be the best time years of your life and I am determined to make them this.
Remember When...
We used to walk around alll day, and have no destination, yet still manage to have fun?
We used to hangout at my house until 2am and my parents just didnt care.
Those long summer nights when you guys would stay out all night and my house was the hot spot.
Trying to be devious but getting caught at everything we did.
Staying home alone at my house while my parents were Up North and just hanging out.
My brother used to think you lived at my house, and asked me where you were whenever you werent over.
We rode our bikes to down by Hilton and you all jump that random ramp down there.
I would ride halfway to your house with Rj and them just so we could get a chance to hangout.
We would sit in your basement and just watch movies and hangout all day long.
We all could hangout without you guys fighting, or something coming up.
We could just sit in my room and take random naps while listening to music.
I would hear rocks thrown at my window, and a bunch of ppl being at my house at the crack of dawn ready to hangout.
We could spend hours talking on the phone, every night... without losing things to talk about.
I could tell you anything and everything, no matter who it was about.
You came to my house when we had the huge Black out and we hungout in the pool and on kaitlans trampoline.
My front porch was the place to watch movies.
We could just meet half way and randomly make our cookies, or walk around.
We used to hangout everyday, no matter what happened.
... those were the days.
*(sry guys. My LJ cut isnt working)*
Now its 10:00 and ive accomplished what I have been wanting to do for a few days now. Hopefully I will find more time to update again, but thats it for now :D
<3 much love.