felling all depressed
yesterday i felt like everyone was against me. idk.. even if people are joking i can handel some jokes but otherones are hard especially wen they are not mentioned as being sarcastic..well ne way i got into an argument over the stupidest thing b/c i jus mentioned something people take things the wrong way my GODDDDDD.... w/e i should b the one saying i ahev it hard b/c i do.. there are alot of things going on in my life that are indescribably and imagineable.. i ahve a past that no one knows about and i jus can't quite put my finger on it and ask the ? y or have answers... but i had a dream last night n it wasn't a happy one n i woke up and realized tomarrow is my grandma's b-day and my grandparents anniversary on monday... she would have been 71.. and still happy if she were here.... fucking disease, fucking people, fucking doctors... i swear if ne one crosses my path wrong i will not let them go i will not give any more chaces... if i couldn't have a chance nither will they.. people need to learn how to experience pain and take it in and hold it in til it hurts b/c they are no more important than i am... they need to learn how to understand nothing will ever go right all the time and they need to shut up about it and not let the whole world know... some people have a weird way of thinking.. i learned this within the past two days... and alls i ahve to say is go screw yourself b/c if u keep acting like u are.. then..u figure it out but at least u'll get practice now.. well homework sux.. and i feel so bad acting like this but i can't smile.. i can't and it hurts... none of my best wishes have came true..