the break & finals
okay so i am studying for finals this week. I took my Cal exam today. I'm glad I got that one out of the way! Hopefully I did pretty good too..
So the real reason I am typing this is for venting. Sometimes I guess this just helps. So I am sitting at the computer and I'm trying to study but all I can do is cry. I am extremely upset but then again I am mad.
1) Without telling the whole story or situation, I know I said don't call me. You actually think I mean that? NO! What girl does??? She is testing you to see if you truely care about her. And it's pretty fucking obvious that you don't. Just like everyone else in my life, I always end up hurt. See the reason I don't trust people? I have this knot it feels like in my heart. It really hurts and all I can think of is how I wish none of this would've happened.
2) The whole ex girlfriend thing was really annoying. On saturday night, I dont care who it was, it's pretty fucking obvious that she isn't informed that you "had" a girlfriend. Why keep it a secret? I told Seth, he almost quit being friends with me because of it too, He was extremely pissed. But at least I told him. I guess it's a different situation because I actually still talk to seth. What you need to realize is that Seth is MY BEST FRIEND. When shit like this with people like you, I know he will be there to talk too. I'm sure he gets aggrivated when I call and talk to him about you too. I just have this feeling that you keep stuff from me. You live far away and you dont tell me a lot of shit so I dont know what you do.
3) YOU KNOW YOU FUCKING CALLED ME HER NAME. THE FACT THAT YOU SAID EVEN IF I DID YOU SHOULDN'T GET MAD SHOWED YOU DID. you would be so fucking pissed off if I ever ever EVER called you seth. Wouldn't you?!! AND YOU CAN ASK ANY FUCKING GIRL THAT HAS FEELINGS FOR HER BOYFRIEND THAT IF THEY CALL THEM BY THEIR EX GIRLFRIENDS NAME THEY ARE GOING TO GET ALITTLE PISSED OFF. I WOULDN'T HAVE GOTTEN SO MAD BUT THIS HAPPENED AFTER WHAT HAPPENED THIS WEEKEND.
4) IT'S PRETTY OBVIOUS THAT YOU ARE NOT MEANT FOR ME AND I'M GOING TO MOVE ON WITH MY LIFE. I AM VERY STRONG AND I'VE BEEN HURT SO MANY TIMES THAT THIS DOESN'T PHASE ME. BELIEVE ME YOU'VE TAUGHT ME A LOT OF THINGS I DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT MYSELF SO THANK YOU FOR THAT. WORD OF ADVICE: DONT ALWAYS THINK YOUR FUCKING RIGHT BECAUSE IN THE END YOU LOSE THE PERSON YA LOVE. IF YOU EVEN REALLY LOVED AT ALL.
STUDY TIME..
So the real reason I am typing this is for venting. Sometimes I guess this just helps. So I am sitting at the computer and I'm trying to study but all I can do is cry. I am extremely upset but then again I am mad.
1) Without telling the whole story or situation, I know I said don't call me. You actually think I mean that? NO! What girl does??? She is testing you to see if you truely care about her. And it's pretty fucking obvious that you don't. Just like everyone else in my life, I always end up hurt. See the reason I don't trust people? I have this knot it feels like in my heart. It really hurts and all I can think of is how I wish none of this would've happened.
2) The whole ex girlfriend thing was really annoying. On saturday night, I dont care who it was, it's pretty fucking obvious that she isn't informed that you "had" a girlfriend. Why keep it a secret? I told Seth, he almost quit being friends with me because of it too, He was extremely pissed. But at least I told him. I guess it's a different situation because I actually still talk to seth. What you need to realize is that Seth is MY BEST FRIEND. When shit like this with people like you, I know he will be there to talk too. I'm sure he gets aggrivated when I call and talk to him about you too. I just have this feeling that you keep stuff from me. You live far away and you dont tell me a lot of shit so I dont know what you do.
3) YOU KNOW YOU FUCKING CALLED ME HER NAME. THE FACT THAT YOU SAID EVEN IF I DID YOU SHOULDN'T GET MAD SHOWED YOU DID. you would be so fucking pissed off if I ever ever EVER called you seth. Wouldn't you?!! AND YOU CAN ASK ANY FUCKING GIRL THAT HAS FEELINGS FOR HER BOYFRIEND THAT IF THEY CALL THEM BY THEIR EX GIRLFRIENDS NAME THEY ARE GOING TO GET ALITTLE PISSED OFF. I WOULDN'T HAVE GOTTEN SO MAD BUT THIS HAPPENED AFTER WHAT HAPPENED THIS WEEKEND.
4) IT'S PRETTY OBVIOUS THAT YOU ARE NOT MEANT FOR ME AND I'M GOING TO MOVE ON WITH MY LIFE. I AM VERY STRONG AND I'VE BEEN HURT SO MANY TIMES THAT THIS DOESN'T PHASE ME. BELIEVE ME YOU'VE TAUGHT ME A LOT OF THINGS I DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT MYSELF SO THANK YOU FOR THAT. WORD OF ADVICE: DONT ALWAYS THINK YOUR FUCKING RIGHT BECAUSE IN THE END YOU LOSE THE PERSON YA LOVE. IF YOU EVEN REALLY LOVED AT ALL.
STUDY TIME..