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yesterday was amazing fr me. saw piracy @ hadley sk8 park lets say it was umm....interesting.. yeah interesting. Then iwemt school shopping.. haha yay more clothes for me to throw into the corner in my room.. haha. i think i got alot of clothes that made my mom comfortable instead of me being comfy.umm after that i went to me dad's to spend some time with my stepbrother and step sister.. diego was so hyper it was so weird.he and i played the whole night and niki and i watched what a girl wants.. ahaha damn 14 yr olds , they have an amanda bynes obsession.. umm we didnt go to sleep till wicked late.. I was kinda sad because i had the feeling that diego didnt remember me much. but my stepmom told me he kept asking about me forever.. i was his best friend and they took him away.. :( .aother yay from yesterday he told me he loved me.. i feel like ive waited forever to hear those words. he cuddled with me last night and it was so cute.. i watched him fall asleep .Like i used to when he was scared and came to my room and fall asleep with me hes that little boy who would wake me up @ 4:30 just to watch scooby doo with him because he was my little boy.. but hes not a little boy altho hes only 8.. hes independent and smart and so sure of himself.. hes everything i wanted to be at the age of 16 and hes only 8 and hes got it all.this morning was som much like ive recognized before.. i woke up and there he was sitting down in front of the tv watching spongebob and he looked over at me and smiled... i was sad when i had to go home .... i didnt wanna leave him. Ive waited 3 years to get him back and i cant have him..... im not his best friend anymore and hes not my little boy.Lying down with him watching him fall asleep i was thinking... i dont wanna be etter now.... i have to be.. for him i cant smoke weed and drink and be stupid anymore.. because its not only going to affect me its going to effect him also. i wanna be the good older sister i once was.Niki and i yeah we are just stupid kids.. haah shes ghetto i helped her get ghetto clothes yes i can also help ghetto people shop haha.. yeah and i got her shoes that match her clothes and stuff.. how pathetic is that. we spent time together. she wants me to come over more often and i think i should because last night i had the perfect opportunity to get messed up.. ya kno my mom bought me booze and my friends were all getting high... but i chose my sister and brother over that and to me that means something.i went accessory shopping today..didnt get much just a couple cute necklaces here and there ya kno.. my mom is proud that i spent $105 bucks on 3pairs of pants 2 curdoroy and one camo and i got 6 shirts... im very proud too.. i have my cute outfit for my senior pics i cant wait...no no i can wait with a mug like this who cares what im wearing ..hahahaha.. kk my plan for today -> i am going to do a very well very deserved immatation of a vegetable.... im working on my skills.. and fuck!! i just burned my finger... damn fire... i love you! haha and yeah..