Days of Lonely
Title: Days of Lonely
Pairing: NaKame
Genre: Slight angst
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: I own the words, not the boys.
Summary: Nakamaru’s experiencing life without Kame.
Day 3
This will be the last time you see me
At first Nakamaru thought he was joking, being typical over dramatic Kame, but it’s been 2 days and Kame still hasn’t returned home. There’s letter on his coffee table, a small island of white isolated in a mahogany sea, hauntingly. Nakamaru has been staring at the letter all day, it sits there mocking him, accusing him of crimes he’s sure he hasn’t committed. Words dance around in Nakamaru’s head lead by a melody in Kame’s voice.
Day 7
It’s like you were suddenly gone, even though you were right next to me.
Nakamaru remembers days were Kame would sit by his side, doing all kinds of things for his attention. Making kissy faces at him, touching him all over without caring who saw, he would stay next to Maru as he studied or did homework. Kame was always there and Nakamaru had always showed him how much he was appreciated, hadn’t he? Sometimes Maru would check out mentally, but it was never long, he never missed anything important, or had he?
Day 8
Your arms used to feel like home…
“Maru can you hold me?”
He remembers Kame asking this all the time, he always thought it was so silly having t hold the younger man all the time. He would do it, but most of the time he refused, now he can’t help but to think that if he had of held on tighter Kame would still be with him.
Day 9
Please stop calling me; I don’t want to talk about this.
Kame picks up on the fifth ring of the third call that day, to hear his voice is heavenly and for moment Maru forgets how to talk.
“Kazu I need you, please come back home” a few days ago Nakamaru would’ve felt like he was above pleading, but time had weakened him, pain had torn down his resolve.
“I can’t keep doing this Nakamaru, I’m trying to start fresh, I can’t do that with you calling me everyday!”
“I just need to see you, just thirty minutes of your time that’s all.”
“Goodbye Nakamaru”
Day 13
Stalking is not good, but it is effective. Nakamaru catches Kame in the elevator after work, so he has no way to escape.
“Kame you’re, there are no words for what you are to me, it’s like if I put my hand on your shoulder like this at first you’d be like ‘what is he doing’ and it’d be kinda weird, but kinda nice because my hand is warm, and it’s human contact, like a connection and after a while you’d get used to it, maybe even depend on it to keep you warm when it gets cold, lonely. But then I take it away and you’re left with nothing but a memory of what used to be there. Empty.”
“Why are you telling me this now?” Kame looks sad, like Maru just punched him where it hurts, it takes effort not to just gather the beautiful creature in his arms right now.
“Because that how I feel, I needed to tell you how I feel.”
“Well you should’ve said something before. Don’t follow me anymore.’ Kame brushes past him, Nakamaru never felt so cold.
Day 22
Nakamaru writes a letter.
Dear Kame,
This is the last thing you’ll hear from me.
I will always love you.
Nakamaru
Pairing: NaKame
Genre: Slight angst
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: I own the words, not the boys.
Summary: Nakamaru’s experiencing life without Kame.
Day 3
This will be the last time you see me
At first Nakamaru thought he was joking, being typical over dramatic Kame, but it’s been 2 days and Kame still hasn’t returned home. There’s letter on his coffee table, a small island of white isolated in a mahogany sea, hauntingly. Nakamaru has been staring at the letter all day, it sits there mocking him, accusing him of crimes he’s sure he hasn’t committed. Words dance around in Nakamaru’s head lead by a melody in Kame’s voice.
Day 7
It’s like you were suddenly gone, even though you were right next to me.
Nakamaru remembers days were Kame would sit by his side, doing all kinds of things for his attention. Making kissy faces at him, touching him all over without caring who saw, he would stay next to Maru as he studied or did homework. Kame was always there and Nakamaru had always showed him how much he was appreciated, hadn’t he? Sometimes Maru would check out mentally, but it was never long, he never missed anything important, or had he?
Day 8
Your arms used to feel like home…
“Maru can you hold me?”
He remembers Kame asking this all the time, he always thought it was so silly having t hold the younger man all the time. He would do it, but most of the time he refused, now he can’t help but to think that if he had of held on tighter Kame would still be with him.
Day 9
Please stop calling me; I don’t want to talk about this.
Kame picks up on the fifth ring of the third call that day, to hear his voice is heavenly and for moment Maru forgets how to talk.
“Kazu I need you, please come back home” a few days ago Nakamaru would’ve felt like he was above pleading, but time had weakened him, pain had torn down his resolve.
“I can’t keep doing this Nakamaru, I’m trying to start fresh, I can’t do that with you calling me everyday!”
“I just need to see you, just thirty minutes of your time that’s all.”
“Goodbye Nakamaru”
Day 13
Stalking is not good, but it is effective. Nakamaru catches Kame in the elevator after work, so he has no way to escape.
“Kame you’re, there are no words for what you are to me, it’s like if I put my hand on your shoulder like this at first you’d be like ‘what is he doing’ and it’d be kinda weird, but kinda nice because my hand is warm, and it’s human contact, like a connection and after a while you’d get used to it, maybe even depend on it to keep you warm when it gets cold, lonely. But then I take it away and you’re left with nothing but a memory of what used to be there. Empty.”
“Why are you telling me this now?” Kame looks sad, like Maru just punched him where it hurts, it takes effort not to just gather the beautiful creature in his arms right now.
“Because that how I feel, I needed to tell you how I feel.”
“Well you should’ve said something before. Don’t follow me anymore.’ Kame brushes past him, Nakamaru never felt so cold.
Day 22
Nakamaru writes a letter.
Dear Kame,
This is the last thing you’ll hear from me.
I will always love you.
Nakamaru