torn up inside..... maybe u can help
hey yall!
Im not one to say that i love commitment and love relationships, but when it comes to this person, it was totally differnt. i feel like not only have i lost the love of my life but my best friend. Not being able to smile and run up to him and kiss and hug him hurts really bad. i really honestly feel that i had falln. falln so deeply to him. Its funny how one minute everything just goes ur way and the next it's hell. He use to tell me not to get attached to him... but the way we acted together thur was no other way to be sept to fall for him. He told me many tyms he wasnt ready for a commitment just yet but i could wait and find out. So i did. He made ma feel so comfortable. i felt as tho i could say nething and do nething with out imbarassing myself. i just didnt care around him. To tell u the truth, when things were good, i was the happiest person, now that things are over and he is leading on more people it made me relize that i love him so much and i cant see myself being with ne other person. and when i see him with other chicks, my heart just seems to crush and fall to the empty pits of my stomach. When this happened i found myself doing crazy things to myself. hurting myself. jsut over a guy. he found out, got pissed off and got scared which also turned him off completely. now he's afraid just to talk to me because i hurt myself. and he dosent want to even talk to me and keep his distance because he's afraid that i'll fall for him and hurt my self agian. i told him i wouldnt. but i wish i could have this kid. i do ne thing for him! But also he's the biggest loser ever because he tells girls that he's not ready for a commitment and he plays his games by leading them on and dropping them telling them he doesnt like them and hes not ready to be a boyfriend and never will be. Because he has been hurt so many times. but what i see, is that he's doing this to gurls now. i think ever since he go skinny in buff, from being this huge monster of like 200 lbs to like 140lb kid with the best muscle tone ever gets. no that he nos he looks good and is using everyone! ughhhh......... i knew i shudda listen to my friends. ( esp. Laura)... well i think im done....
much love....
xoxoxo
Im not one to say that i love commitment and love relationships, but when it comes to this person, it was totally differnt. i feel like not only have i lost the love of my life but my best friend. Not being able to smile and run up to him and kiss and hug him hurts really bad. i really honestly feel that i had falln. falln so deeply to him. Its funny how one minute everything just goes ur way and the next it's hell. He use to tell me not to get attached to him... but the way we acted together thur was no other way to be sept to fall for him. He told me many tyms he wasnt ready for a commitment just yet but i could wait and find out. So i did. He made ma feel so comfortable. i felt as tho i could say nething and do nething with out imbarassing myself. i just didnt care around him. To tell u the truth, when things were good, i was the happiest person, now that things are over and he is leading on more people it made me relize that i love him so much and i cant see myself being with ne other person. and when i see him with other chicks, my heart just seems to crush and fall to the empty pits of my stomach. When this happened i found myself doing crazy things to myself. hurting myself. jsut over a guy. he found out, got pissed off and got scared which also turned him off completely. now he's afraid just to talk to me because i hurt myself. and he dosent want to even talk to me and keep his distance because he's afraid that i'll fall for him and hurt my self agian. i told him i wouldnt. but i wish i could have this kid. i do ne thing for him! But also he's the biggest loser ever because he tells girls that he's not ready for a commitment and he plays his games by leading them on and dropping them telling them he doesnt like them and hes not ready to be a boyfriend and never will be. Because he has been hurt so many times. but what i see, is that he's doing this to gurls now. i think ever since he go skinny in buff, from being this huge monster of like 200 lbs to like 140lb kid with the best muscle tone ever gets. no that he nos he looks good and is using everyone! ughhhh......... i knew i shudda listen to my friends. ( esp. Laura)... well i think im done....
much love....
xoxoxo