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I'm sorry, I just can't. I'm not ready 4 it, ur not ready 4 it... U may THINK u r, but u r'nt. Especially with me. U know what I wanted. I shouldn't have 2 remind u. But like I said, we've been getting in2 fights like every 2 weeks. I'M the one with the split personality?!?! I've been trying 2 save this 4 months while u haven't even cared. Or no, u go from "I love you Baby and I alwayz will" 2 "If I hear u say my name, I'm gonna slit ur throat." I'm sry, but I don't know what else I can do. I'm sry about last Friday, and if that's what u want this Friday... then it won't happen.
If I'm so fucked up, why do u fucking want 2 fuck me so bad?!?!
Hung out with some people (1 in particular) at all the lunches. Yes, innocent ole (Virgin Mary) Amber. And u know what? It didn't help at all. I wish I could figure out what I'm supposed 2 do, but I'm confused and I don't think anything I did this past year was right. I don't think it'll ever turn out right. No matter how much I want it 2...
Of course I'm gonna be hurt by u leaving. I told u what I think is gonna happen, and u haven't exactly denied it. And u not staying by my side isn't gonna help me at all. U act like u want 2 help so bad, but only in ways that u'll benefit. Well, it's not goin down like that Little Boi. We have all summer, and even during and after u go 2 college. What r u rushing 4???
All I want 2 do is enjoy every single day with u... without stress or drama. I want everything 2 be perfect. Remember when we used 2 go 2 the games and when u came over... we used 2 be able 2 cuddle and 4get about everything else. That's when I actually felt happy. My purpose in life is 2 love someone, and I want that person 2 be u.
I still love you.
"It's so easy, To think about Love, To Talk about Love, To wish for Love, But it's not always easy, To recognize Love, Even when we hold it.... In our hands."
God, not many boys love with their hearts... The girls know what I'm talkin bout. lol.
I screwed everything up... not 2 surprising there... I wanted u 2 be THE 1, but obviously that wasn't meant 2 be. I'll try 2 move on again, but doubt that it will work. I alwayz fall back down in2 this fairytale world u make me believe is real. I'm sorry I wasted ur time, obviously I'm not worth it anymore. Find myself missing November and December... meeting up after school at games and talent shows.... having u hold me... finally letting me find out what it is to be truly HAPPY. But I guess it was all a lie, and happiness doesn't last 4eva. Now when I think of all those good times, it just makes me cry. What's the point of getting attached? Falling in love? Trying 2 find THE 1? B-cuz it never works out anyways... at least 4 me. Do what u want, b-cuz u alwayz did anywayz. U obviously didn't care what I thought. I don't know what ur feelings were, but I doubt that it was love. I just don't think u can really love more than 1 girl at once. I hate that u did this 2 me. And I hate myself 4 letting u... actually believing that it was real.
If I'm so fucked up, why do u fucking want 2 fuck me so bad?!?!
Hung out with some people (1 in particular) at all the lunches. Yes, innocent ole (Virgin Mary) Amber. And u know what? It didn't help at all. I wish I could figure out what I'm supposed 2 do, but I'm confused and I don't think anything I did this past year was right. I don't think it'll ever turn out right. No matter how much I want it 2...
Of course I'm gonna be hurt by u leaving. I told u what I think is gonna happen, and u haven't exactly denied it. And u not staying by my side isn't gonna help me at all. U act like u want 2 help so bad, but only in ways that u'll benefit. Well, it's not goin down like that Little Boi. We have all summer, and even during and after u go 2 college. What r u rushing 4???
All I want 2 do is enjoy every single day with u... without stress or drama. I want everything 2 be perfect. Remember when we used 2 go 2 the games and when u came over... we used 2 be able 2 cuddle and 4get about everything else. That's when I actually felt happy. My purpose in life is 2 love someone, and I want that person 2 be u.
I still love you.
"It's so easy, To think about Love, To Talk about Love, To wish for Love, But it's not always easy, To recognize Love, Even when we hold it.... In our hands."
God, not many boys love with their hearts... The girls know what I'm talkin bout. lol.
I screwed everything up... not 2 surprising there... I wanted u 2 be THE 1, but obviously that wasn't meant 2 be. I'll try 2 move on again, but doubt that it will work. I alwayz fall back down in2 this fairytale world u make me believe is real. I'm sorry I wasted ur time, obviously I'm not worth it anymore. Find myself missing November and December... meeting up after school at games and talent shows.... having u hold me... finally letting me find out what it is to be truly HAPPY. But I guess it was all a lie, and happiness doesn't last 4eva. Now when I think of all those good times, it just makes me cry. What's the point of getting attached? Falling in love? Trying 2 find THE 1? B-cuz it never works out anyways... at least 4 me. Do what u want, b-cuz u alwayz did anywayz. U obviously didn't care what I thought. I don't know what ur feelings were, but I doubt that it was love. I just don't think u can really love more than 1 girl at once. I hate that u did this 2 me. And I hate myself 4 letting u... actually believing that it was real.