City girls always use both hands...
so..I failed a midterm. For the first time, I officially failed at something. Ugh. I dunno how I feel about it anymore, I don't care. Bah.
I love Mika. He reminds me of Freddy Mercury, he can do so much with his voice. Lurve hiiiiiiim. I just realized he'll be playing at the Mod Club in a week or so, but it's supposedly sold out.
Yesterday I had one of those days where it's inhumane to walk out the door looking the way you do, but I did it anyway. The results? not too great. I just happened to walk into E a few times, one the ONE day I prayed not to. Thanks. The galaxy just has a thing against me when it comes to these things...and also when it comes to chemistry of the academic sort, as well.
Bah. I'm pissed off at myself for not trying harder. It seems too futile to try sometimes. I just end up fucking myself over in the worst ways. BAH. HUMBUG. I almost want to just go on vacation right now and just let everything fall apart. It already is anyway, so trying will just be a waste of effort. Sort of like...so many other things in my life.
I was thinking about it today, and I realized that I have the ability to win anyone over, no matter who it is. I don't know what it is, but I can do it. When I set my mind on someone, I can get them to change their minds 360. This doesn't mean that I need that, it's just a realization that when I want to get to know someone...I can. Perhaps it's a bit of boost to my personality, since I feel like the one person in the world who lacks substance is me. I have no talents, not one thing I can just sit and talk about with a person and really be passionate about. I dunno. something happened along the path of my development and I just became talent-less. I don't have "a dream," which is lame because everybody has a dream in some form or other. Bah. It just isn't the most positive thing to be feeling this way about myself.
Speaking of dreams, here's one that needs explaining: I dreamt of E having sex with his chick right in front of me. I was in the room, he knew I was there...and it was just normal (in the dream). WTF is that about? I need to consult someone who knows the meanings behind dreams, or something. Well, the internet actually. But alas, my own dream isn't there.
To dream about sex, refers to the psychological completion and the integration of contrasting aspects of the Self. You need to be more receptive and incorporate aspects of your dream sex partner into your own character. Alternatively and a more direct interpretation of the dream, may be your libido's way of telling you that it's been too long since you have had sex. It may indicate repressed sexual desires and your needs for physical and emotional love.
To dream about sex with someone other than your spouse or significant other, suggests dissatisfaction with the physical side of your relationship. On the other hand, it may be harmless fantasy. In such situations, you may find that you are less inhibited sexually and you can even bring that sense of adventure to your existing relationship.
To dream that you are having sex with an ex or someone who is not your current mate, denotes your reservations about embarking in a new relationship or situation. You may feel nervous about exposing yourself or currently feel a resurgence of those old emotions and feelings that you felt back when you and your ex were together. Believe it or not, it is not uncommon for people approaching their wedding to experience especially erotic adventures with partners other than their intended spouses. This may be due to the intensity of your sexual passion with your fianc�. It also relates to the new roles that you will be taking on and the uncertainty that that may bring.
If you are heterosexual and you dream that you are having sex with someone of the same sex, signifies not necessarily homosexual desire, but an expression of greater self love and acceptance. You need to be in better touch of your feminine or masculine side.
To dream that you are the opposite sex, suggests that you exhibit or need to incorporate those qualities of the opposite sex. Ask yourself, how do you feel being a man or a woman? In what ways can you incorporate those feelings into your waking life.
I love Mika. He reminds me of Freddy Mercury, he can do so much with his voice. Lurve hiiiiiiim. I just realized he'll be playing at the Mod Club in a week or so, but it's supposedly sold out.
Yesterday I had one of those days where it's inhumane to walk out the door looking the way you do, but I did it anyway. The results? not too great. I just happened to walk into E a few times, one the ONE day I prayed not to. Thanks. The galaxy just has a thing against me when it comes to these things...and also when it comes to chemistry of the academic sort, as well.
Bah. I'm pissed off at myself for not trying harder. It seems too futile to try sometimes. I just end up fucking myself over in the worst ways. BAH. HUMBUG. I almost want to just go on vacation right now and just let everything fall apart. It already is anyway, so trying will just be a waste of effort. Sort of like...so many other things in my life.
I was thinking about it today, and I realized that I have the ability to win anyone over, no matter who it is. I don't know what it is, but I can do it. When I set my mind on someone, I can get them to change their minds 360. This doesn't mean that I need that, it's just a realization that when I want to get to know someone...I can. Perhaps it's a bit of boost to my personality, since I feel like the one person in the world who lacks substance is me. I have no talents, not one thing I can just sit and talk about with a person and really be passionate about. I dunno. something happened along the path of my development and I just became talent-less. I don't have "a dream," which is lame because everybody has a dream in some form or other. Bah. It just isn't the most positive thing to be feeling this way about myself.
Speaking of dreams, here's one that needs explaining: I dreamt of E having sex with his chick right in front of me. I was in the room, he knew I was there...and it was just normal (in the dream). WTF is that about? I need to consult someone who knows the meanings behind dreams, or something. Well, the internet actually. But alas, my own dream isn't there.
To dream about sex, refers to the psychological completion and the integration of contrasting aspects of the Self. You need to be more receptive and incorporate aspects of your dream sex partner into your own character. Alternatively and a more direct interpretation of the dream, may be your libido's way of telling you that it's been too long since you have had sex. It may indicate repressed sexual desires and your needs for physical and emotional love.
To dream about sex with someone other than your spouse or significant other, suggests dissatisfaction with the physical side of your relationship. On the other hand, it may be harmless fantasy. In such situations, you may find that you are less inhibited sexually and you can even bring that sense of adventure to your existing relationship.
To dream that you are having sex with an ex or someone who is not your current mate, denotes your reservations about embarking in a new relationship or situation. You may feel nervous about exposing yourself or currently feel a resurgence of those old emotions and feelings that you felt back when you and your ex were together. Believe it or not, it is not uncommon for people approaching their wedding to experience especially erotic adventures with partners other than their intended spouses. This may be due to the intensity of your sexual passion with your fianc�. It also relates to the new roles that you will be taking on and the uncertainty that that may bring.
If you are heterosexual and you dream that you are having sex with someone of the same sex, signifies not necessarily homosexual desire, but an expression of greater self love and acceptance. You need to be in better touch of your feminine or masculine side.
To dream that you are the opposite sex, suggests that you exhibit or need to incorporate those qualities of the opposite sex. Ask yourself, how do you feel being a man or a woman? In what ways can you incorporate those feelings into your waking life.