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bad bad bad day yesterday. called mom bout goin to the movies w/justin n i guess thats wut started to get her mad. my bro got in trouble at skewl. so she was pissed. came in n saw me on the fone n computer n i guess that didn't help. she got even more pissed n started yellin at me. we got in a HUGE FIGHT. my mom was sayin shit like ur neva home n i told her im neva home cuz i cant stand to be around her cuz all she does is bitch at me. n she started screamin so i had to get off the fone w/ash. she said i need councilin. n said that ever since danni n papaw died ive been so down in the dumps i dont care bout ne thing ne more. then she was by my dresser n picked up my birth control n said ya u better b takin these i dont wana b a grandmother. i said ya mom since u kno me so well. i told her i was callin dad cuz i wanted to move in w/him. took my cell off the charger n she ripped the charger outa the wall. hit me w/it then threw it at the wall. now there is holes in my wall from that. she bent the prongs on my charger. go mom! then she said we need to work on our relationship. n said we were gona go to councilin together. i told her i was crazy n it wasn't gona help. afta she finally left me alone a lil she was goin through my shit n found a baby shower invitation. she asked whos baby shower n i told her it was none of her business n to stop goin through my shit. i went in her room to call my dad n she picked up the otha house fone n told me to hang up n she hit me in the head w/the fone in her hand. called my dad later n he said the fone didn't hang up n he heard everything. she wouldn't lemme outa my room earlier n she woudln't lemme outa her room either. she told me to sit on the bed next to her but i said no cuz i didn't wana get hit again. then she said sumthin bout me not lovin her n shit n i got pissed n blew up. i said sumthin bout the ring i had bought her for christmas n she got mad n threw it at me while i was in my room. it sat exactly where it landed til this mornin cuz she woudln't take it. she finally did but it doesn't make me feel ne better. ive been in sucha shitty mood today. all i can think about is how we fought n how justin is movin 2moro. todays not a good day either. i cant keep goin on w/these shitty ass days. ill lose it. if i already havn't