How am I only figuring this out now?????
So, I've had too much thinking time today, and something has occured to me.
In addition to this journal, I keep an even more infrequently updated physical journal. I was thinking about all the things I've written in it over the past 12 years. My most closely guarded secrets are in there. If anyone ever got their hands on it, people I care about would be so hurt. And I know no one is really interested in my diary, but it's like.... if I ever had kids or grandkids and they happened across it and read it... I feel like if I ever have kids or get really sick or something, I should just burn it.
Stuff from high school, decisions I've made, people I've fallen for, opinions I've had... some of it could be incriminating someday, I think. Not on a large scale of course, but I don't want my future kids to end up hating me because of private thoughts I have now and had in the past.
And it's like, if I'm so worried about people seeing it someday, even after I'm long gone, maybe I shouldn't be writing those things down. But I'm a writer by nature. I've been expressing myself through writing since I learned to write the alphabet. I might not be good at it, but it's what I do. SO why don't I write it and destroy it like some people do? I value looking back at experiences, the good and the bad. Even now, I go back and read some of the stuff I wrote years ago and remember who I was back then. But just becaue I do that doesn't mean I want other people to do it...
I dunno. What do other people do with their secrets?
In addition to this journal, I keep an even more infrequently updated physical journal. I was thinking about all the things I've written in it over the past 12 years. My most closely guarded secrets are in there. If anyone ever got their hands on it, people I care about would be so hurt. And I know no one is really interested in my diary, but it's like.... if I ever had kids or grandkids and they happened across it and read it... I feel like if I ever have kids or get really sick or something, I should just burn it.
Stuff from high school, decisions I've made, people I've fallen for, opinions I've had... some of it could be incriminating someday, I think. Not on a large scale of course, but I don't want my future kids to end up hating me because of private thoughts I have now and had in the past.
And it's like, if I'm so worried about people seeing it someday, even after I'm long gone, maybe I shouldn't be writing those things down. But I'm a writer by nature. I've been expressing myself through writing since I learned to write the alphabet. I might not be good at it, but it's what I do. SO why don't I write it and destroy it like some people do? I value looking back at experiences, the good and the bad. Even now, I go back and read some of the stuff I wrote years ago and remember who I was back then. But just becaue I do that doesn't mean I want other people to do it...
I dunno. What do other people do with their secrets?