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I've been on kind of an impromptu hiatus for a while, and I haven't gotten back to some people, and I'm sorry about that, but I'm really upset, so I just wanted to write about it.
I just called the Stoppie in Abington about a job. I told the woman that I had submitted an application and I was wondering if she had anything available. Her reply: "We have nothing in the entire store."
I know it was stupid of me, but I was just kind of in the mindset that Stop & Shop was the one place I could definitely find a job. I know, REALLLLLYYYYY stupid, especially right now. But it's like, in Kingston, whether they needed me or not, they'd take me. So I guess I just associate that with the store. Which is also very closed minded of me. i know that. But that doesn't mean I was any less hurt when she told me she had nothing. I dunno. Maybe I should have told her that I've worked at Stoppie before and I know the ins and outs of everything there. or maybe I should have asked someone in Kingston to put in a good word for me or something. I wonder if it would have made a difference.
I just really wanted a job there. I know that's stupid. But at least I know how to do the work. It's a comfortable place for me. And I'm just SO SICK of sitting at home everyday. I can't deal with it anymore! It's just so depressing knowing that the one place I actually have the credentials to work at, won't hire me :( And as I said, I know it's stupid, but I just really thought I could get a job there. I could just, I dunno, work my Stop & Shop magic, and they'd give me a job.
I mean, it was bad enough when McDonald's wouldn't hire me, but now even in my element, I can't get a job. I can't help but feel a little doomed. I just feel like giving up. I'm sick of applying and I'm sick of getting rejected. I'm apparently never going to find any kind of job, so I should just stop trying!
And I know it's really stupid to be crying over not being able to work at a grocery store, but i can't help it! It's just so hard knowing that if things had worked out differently, I would still be working in Kingston at a secure, albiet part-time, job. I'd at least be bringing home a couple hundred dollars a week, and I wouldn't be sitting around all day everyday. And getting rejected from full time jobs wouldn't hurt as much because hey, at least my bills would be getting paid in the meantime.
But instead, my life sucks. End of story.
I just called the Stoppie in Abington about a job. I told the woman that I had submitted an application and I was wondering if she had anything available. Her reply: "We have nothing in the entire store."
I know it was stupid of me, but I was just kind of in the mindset that Stop & Shop was the one place I could definitely find a job. I know, REALLLLLYYYYY stupid, especially right now. But it's like, in Kingston, whether they needed me or not, they'd take me. So I guess I just associate that with the store. Which is also very closed minded of me. i know that. But that doesn't mean I was any less hurt when she told me she had nothing. I dunno. Maybe I should have told her that I've worked at Stoppie before and I know the ins and outs of everything there. or maybe I should have asked someone in Kingston to put in a good word for me or something. I wonder if it would have made a difference.
I just really wanted a job there. I know that's stupid. But at least I know how to do the work. It's a comfortable place for me. And I'm just SO SICK of sitting at home everyday. I can't deal with it anymore! It's just so depressing knowing that the one place I actually have the credentials to work at, won't hire me :( And as I said, I know it's stupid, but I just really thought I could get a job there. I could just, I dunno, work my Stop & Shop magic, and they'd give me a job.
I mean, it was bad enough when McDonald's wouldn't hire me, but now even in my element, I can't get a job. I can't help but feel a little doomed. I just feel like giving up. I'm sick of applying and I'm sick of getting rejected. I'm apparently never going to find any kind of job, so I should just stop trying!
And I know it's really stupid to be crying over not being able to work at a grocery store, but i can't help it! It's just so hard knowing that if things had worked out differently, I would still be working in Kingston at a secure, albiet part-time, job. I'd at least be bringing home a couple hundred dollars a week, and I wouldn't be sitting around all day everyday. And getting rejected from full time jobs wouldn't hurt as much because hey, at least my bills would be getting paid in the meantime.
But instead, my life sucks. End of story.