that thing
im so sick of trying to be its friend all i want is to be able to call it with feeling like the most annoying person on the planet. but somehow i always seem to feel that way. after it left i chose to stay here because i thought that these friends were real and better then the ones where i was going and yes alot of them are (you guys know who you are ) but i feel so lost when i can't call my "friend" to talk without feeling bad about it i just want to go home go back to what my life was before, but i can't do that either everything has changed so much and im so lost in all this new shit i just want to FUCKIN SCREAM i hate everything right now. i wish i new what was best for me i wish i new how to be strong but i just don't . i don't know how to make anything better well i know one way ......