everything sucks:(

[luv2starve84]

I'm really depressed right now, I just wanna curl up into a ball and fucking cry. I went over my goal today and ate too much and now i feel like a fucking fat fuck. I've been really tired all day and my knee still hurts like fuck. I'm seriously going through running withdraw, I fucking hate not being able to run it completely sucks. my friends wanted me to go out to dinner with them and I lied and used my knee as a excuse so now their fucking mad at me. my fucking parents are pissed at me because they tried making me eat dinner and I lied and told them i was going out to dinner with friends and that started a fight but really I went to workout. my fucking guy friend is pissed at me too because he wanted me to go to the bars with him tonight but since I don't drink anymore whats the fucking point in going. so I told him my knee hurt too bad and i felt sick and he kept begging me to go and I was like no maybe another time we can hang out. fucker didn't listen and kept calling me and I didn't answer so finally he left this bitchy message so now hes pissed at me. I know he likes me more then a friend and I only like him as a friend. hes a nice guy most of the time its just hes very pushie and if you don't do what he wants he gets pissed at you. whatever i don't care if hes mad. I hate everything right now. I really need someone to talk to right now because im seriously about to cry:(

todays intake:
1 hershey kiss-25 cals
1 slice fat free cheese-30 cals
1 pickle-10 cals
total-65 cals:( i fucking hate myself