My own worst enemy
Slowly but surely I've been reverting back to my old self, how I was before.
Who remembers me from when I was in 8th grade?
I dissappeared, time stopped for me. People give me full detailed accounts of things that happened that year that should by all logic be vivid memories for me, and I have literally no recollection of them at all.
The people who actually care are probably thinking "why doesn't she just decide not to be like that again?" It shouldn't be that hard. I know exactly what I need to do, what steps I need to take, but i literally have anti-motivation. The more i try to convince myself to do the things that are good for me, the more i slide in the opposite direction.
Help me
No, don't. The more people try to help me, the less productive I seem to become. My life is one big vicious cycle, and now i'm back in the years that lead to a breakdown. I can feel the climax coming.
Who remembers me from when I was in 8th grade?
I dissappeared, time stopped for me. People give me full detailed accounts of things that happened that year that should by all logic be vivid memories for me, and I have literally no recollection of them at all.
The people who actually care are probably thinking "why doesn't she just decide not to be like that again?" It shouldn't be that hard. I know exactly what I need to do, what steps I need to take, but i literally have anti-motivation. The more i try to convince myself to do the things that are good for me, the more i slide in the opposite direction.
Help me
No, don't. The more people try to help me, the less productive I seem to become. My life is one big vicious cycle, and now i'm back in the years that lead to a breakdown. I can feel the climax coming.