IS IM SMART IS IM SMART?!?!?
DIVISION CHAMPS WUT WUTTTTTT!!!! damn str8 homie...fattty girl scored the winning run...wut wuttttttttt. and wut biatch.we had 2 beat the same team twice 2 come in 1st..so we ended up playin like 4-5 hours str8. the 1st game we beat them 11-3...the next game 6-5. whewwww..way 2 close 4 comfort. i ended up wit one whole side of me oranged up from the clay..cuz i dove from center..2 2nd..sumtin like that but yea i play hard and its FUNNNN. 2 bad the seasons over..i gotta wait til next jan. 2 start again =/ i really wanted roger 2 b there...but SOME PEOPLE r 2 damn judgmental and choose 2 hate the ppl theyve never had a damn conversation with. lets c wuts the reason now..he graduated already. ok...when u live in jamaica..u graduate when ur 16. so he only came up here cuz he doesnt have a mom and his dad died. is it his fault? yea. didnt think so. when u say such horrible things about a person and dont exactly kno who they r, or what they've been thru, u have no idea what your words can do 2 them. and 4 me 2 know u can b that cruel 2 a person that means so much 2 me... and blow it all off as some "oh hes making u miserable and hes turning u against ur family" u need 2 realize its not him..its you. it would make a world of difrence..and i probly wouldnt b in the truble that im in now..if youd just except him. roger..is awesum. so as i c it your the ones missing out on knowing an awesum person who makes me awesomely happy. u want me 2 b happy rite? LOL. no you dont. you have 2 blame your problems on SOME ONE rite?! exactly...
i am trying evrything i can 2 not b at mcfatter next year. but rite now...my gpa isnt high enuff 2 get in2 BCC. HOLLYYYYYY. thats pretty depressing. actually...i never finished making up work from when i had mono...and ap has really screwed me over. i have 2 go 2 graphics over the summer bcuz mrs. deby is a shithead teacher and couldnt teach a meaningful lesson without a tutorial if her life depended on it. and u slacker ppl (vitox) are gonna sit thru a hell hole teacher 4 a whole nother year. HAVE FUN!! i dunno i kinda will miss it cuz it was just so damn easy...and it was like burk time all period. but now that im going 2 sum big time art loser college i have 2 have a lot of prior knowledge and wut not so im not completely behind. i dont want 2 go 2 college..at least not rite away. if u get scholarships in high skool..do they disappear if u dont go 2 college that same year or wutever? i hope not. cuz i need a break. im going 2 a skool that teaches nothing but art related blah..so itll b nothing but artsy ppl. and man...dem artsy pplz can b sum weird ass ppl. and im jus not feelin that. they sent this big azz catalog book in the mail..and its so friggin awesum. especially the graphic design stuff. i kno the one thing i wont do is the fine arts stuff..cuz then u have 2 draw ucky naked ppl and wut not. ALRITEY THEN.....
since ive reformatted my pc my speakers have sounded like horrible fuking shit. it wont pick up the subwoofer or ne thing..so it sounds str8 like motherboard sound..or worse. its killing me bcuz my music is my life and i have like 300 albums. theres no way im gona burn all that 2 cd. PLUS if theyre all separated idd have 2 listen 2 a whole album at a time...and thats just no fun. LOL...so my sound card is kinda hangin off the motherboard...but no im sure thats not wut it is =/
the one thing i cant get off my mind is my fuking parents...and y they cant accept the love of my life. they need 2 realize that if it wasnt something worth fighting for..i wouldnt. but it is...and im not giving up until they change. honestly...they judge him by this one picture theyve seen of him. my dad str8 up said "he looks like a thug" and so now they dont like him. wow. rogers probly the goofiest person ive ever met..and alll the stupid crazy things he says is what keeps me happy when my own parents turn against me. i tell vito all the weird things he says and just laffs...y cant my parents do that...is u smart is u smart?!?! lol....im scared 2 say hes perfect...bcuz the last time i told sum1 they were perfect their entire life as i knew it 2 b was a complete lie. i kno thats not roger...thats y i dont really doubt the relationship. its already been 3 months...but the amount of time hasnt really crossed my mind. sooner or later u just get that feeling...that u can b with that one person and that one person only...4ever...and itll always feel like youre falling in love with them, deeper and deeper each day...and it just never stops...and its the most wonderful feeling in the world. even if we dont last 4ever, u cant live without loving someone and getting hurt..thats life. but i can always look back at him as my first real love..and the one that will hold my heart in his 4ever. i really dont kno how else 2 go about the situation. ive tried so hard 2 b civil about it...and of course ive also screamed my lungs out at them.last nite was probly the worst of the worst. evrytime i look at my arm i c the reminders...how bad things can get...how crazy they can make me. i cried my eyes out for an hour...until my mom came and told me 2 shut the hell up and that roger was the one making me cry. evry litl thing they do..hurts me more and more..and they just dont care. i can tell things will only get worse from here. i dont kno what else 2 do..but the one thing i do kno is im not giving up...never..
btw..i love all of u who hate me and what not. u just give me that much more reason 2 b who i am..and im fine with that. so what if i dont have that lifestyle ne more...ppl change. and im not the only one. it is kinda awkward sumtimes..but i guess b.f.f.r.l.t. can just fade away as they please. yea itd b nice 2 go back 2 how things were in like 10th grade...but wutever. times change. "thats life." i really dont care...and i dont hold ne thing against ne 1. you are who u r. <3 to the older days.....
i am trying evrything i can 2 not b at mcfatter next year. but rite now...my gpa isnt high enuff 2 get in2 BCC. HOLLYYYYYY. thats pretty depressing. actually...i never finished making up work from when i had mono...and ap has really screwed me over. i have 2 go 2 graphics over the summer bcuz mrs. deby is a shithead teacher and couldnt teach a meaningful lesson without a tutorial if her life depended on it. and u slacker ppl (vitox) are gonna sit thru a hell hole teacher 4 a whole nother year. HAVE FUN!! i dunno i kinda will miss it cuz it was just so damn easy...and it was like burk time all period. but now that im going 2 sum big time art loser college i have 2 have a lot of prior knowledge and wut not so im not completely behind. i dont want 2 go 2 college..at least not rite away. if u get scholarships in high skool..do they disappear if u dont go 2 college that same year or wutever? i hope not. cuz i need a break. im going 2 a skool that teaches nothing but art related blah..so itll b nothing but artsy ppl. and man...dem artsy pplz can b sum weird ass ppl. and im jus not feelin that. they sent this big azz catalog book in the mail..and its so friggin awesum. especially the graphic design stuff. i kno the one thing i wont do is the fine arts stuff..cuz then u have 2 draw ucky naked ppl and wut not. ALRITEY THEN.....
since ive reformatted my pc my speakers have sounded like horrible fuking shit. it wont pick up the subwoofer or ne thing..so it sounds str8 like motherboard sound..or worse. its killing me bcuz my music is my life and i have like 300 albums. theres no way im gona burn all that 2 cd. PLUS if theyre all separated idd have 2 listen 2 a whole album at a time...and thats just no fun. LOL...so my sound card is kinda hangin off the motherboard...but no im sure thats not wut it is =/
the one thing i cant get off my mind is my fuking parents...and y they cant accept the love of my life. they need 2 realize that if it wasnt something worth fighting for..i wouldnt. but it is...and im not giving up until they change. honestly...they judge him by this one picture theyve seen of him. my dad str8 up said "he looks like a thug" and so now they dont like him. wow. rogers probly the goofiest person ive ever met..and alll the stupid crazy things he says is what keeps me happy when my own parents turn against me. i tell vito all the weird things he says and just laffs...y cant my parents do that...is u smart is u smart?!?! lol....im scared 2 say hes perfect...bcuz the last time i told sum1 they were perfect their entire life as i knew it 2 b was a complete lie. i kno thats not roger...thats y i dont really doubt the relationship. its already been 3 months...but the amount of time hasnt really crossed my mind. sooner or later u just get that feeling...that u can b with that one person and that one person only...4ever...and itll always feel like youre falling in love with them, deeper and deeper each day...and it just never stops...and its the most wonderful feeling in the world. even if we dont last 4ever, u cant live without loving someone and getting hurt..thats life. but i can always look back at him as my first real love..and the one that will hold my heart in his 4ever. i really dont kno how else 2 go about the situation. ive tried so hard 2 b civil about it...and of course ive also screamed my lungs out at them.last nite was probly the worst of the worst. evrytime i look at my arm i c the reminders...how bad things can get...how crazy they can make me. i cried my eyes out for an hour...until my mom came and told me 2 shut the hell up and that roger was the one making me cry. evry litl thing they do..hurts me more and more..and they just dont care. i can tell things will only get worse from here. i dont kno what else 2 do..but the one thing i do kno is im not giving up...never..
btw..i love all of u who hate me and what not. u just give me that much more reason 2 b who i am..and im fine with that. so what if i dont have that lifestyle ne more...ppl change. and im not the only one. it is kinda awkward sumtimes..but i guess b.f.f.r.l.t. can just fade away as they please. yea itd b nice 2 go back 2 how things were in like 10th grade...but wutever. times change. "thats life." i really dont care...and i dont hold ne thing against ne 1. you are who u r. <3 to the older days.....