a more insightful post to come, but until then:

[luv2dream]

at the end
i realize how your image blurred as we strayed
the jagged lines and fuzzy promises

at the end
i realize how wanting your echoing words resound
the faltering and teetering syllables

at the end
i realize how this facade could not withstand a breathe
the desperate and imperfect sighs

your insecurities
your shortcomings
failed

to love love
obsessed with this perfect idea of your soul
the passion and beauty in it's complete and utter chaotic ego
to coincide with the absolute lack in conviction that is my being
this niche filled with cobwebs surrounded by rusted and lazy metalwork

i realize how compromises are what a life became
the monotony and acceptance
at the end

i realize the good, the bad, and the irreconcilable
the intellectual and common
at the end

i realize things that seem impossible become easier
the time, mindset, and strength
at the end

my choice
my life

i wished i'd loved you
transcend these swirls that fall into formation of our souls
creating this constant cycle of disappointment in varying degrees
where nothing is promised and death is inevitable and hope is obsolete

refusal to give you the fucking satisfaction
the closest you'll ever get to the desired affect

i still hope
i still dream
i still love

God grant me the serenity, the courage, and the wisdom