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i miss him. my logical thinking doesn't go very far, i'm always trying to talk myself out of things when i know i just drag myself in circles. what is it that propels us through life? is it the choices we make... how much is in our control and how much is left to chance/fate/etc? and where do we draw the line? do we leap and hope we made the right decision.. hoping in the end that we come out saying we are better off or stronger for what we did. somethings seem quite apparent, others fall so frequently in and out of the gray that it almost seems like a coin toss. do we convince ourselves after its all said and done that what we did was for our greater good. convince. i guess we never really know. free will. we can sit and wait or we can do something to further a current standstill... how do we know when? is it some internal clicking... an urge, a pulse... when?