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Okay... This may take awhile so get up now and get a cup of coffee or something. Today and yesterday were the days of my reckoning. I got totally fucked up on cough medicine trying to get rid of my sore throat and cough and ended up taking bars... I don't remember a thing. I remember taking my Uncle's girls kids to church and being a girl scout leader (I said the secret pledge and everything) remember taking the bars... then all I knew was I woke up in my bed this morning sore as hell. Apparently, I was running around all night and freaking out. Donnie and Romis took good care of me though and I slighty remember having sex with Donnie(I think I fell asleep though heheh). Today I went to school still recovering from bars and taking more cough medicine and Romis is all pissed at me not only for dating again but for leaving him to babysit kids when they were my responsiblity. I was fucked up he knew that and I couldn't watch them. He volunteered to help them. How is it my fault?! Then I had a nervous breakdown at school because of it and slit my wrist more. Donnie made me feel better though. God, I love him... I feel so perfect with him. Everything that hurts me everything that tries to hold me down he manages to break it. I love him so much and I am so glad he is the one I choose to start dating with again. He is my life. There was a party tonight and he had to leave early. Even though it was a bunch of my friends he had to leave... so I left with him. Because honestly, being there without him isn't worth being there at all. He is the sun that shines every morning promising a bright new day, he is the stars in the evening night letting me know that there is always light in the dark and even in storms he is the lightning shining bright to let me know he is there. He is the air I breath in because without him my heart would suffice, he is the food that allows me energy he is the one hand holding me up when everything else is pushing me down, he is my everything. Although there is a downfall... Chris hates me now. Because I promised him that once I started dating I would tell him. I didn't it doesn't matter though because he and I aren't even that close anymore. The feelings that once were are no more. I don't get it... I just he believes rumors about me and stops talking to me then expects everything to be alright after that. Ridiculous. I love Donnie. Well... That's all for today.