Father's Day
Today is Father’s Day. I just wanted to take a few minutes and write down what I think about this day. It’s just another day for me. I don’t celebrate it. I have a father because otherwise I wouldn’t be here but I really don’t have one.
I don’t have someone I can depend on or that I can have give me away when I get married. You would think if you read this that my father is not alive. But as far as I know he still lives. He lives in New York. At least that is where he was the last time I got an e-mail from him.
I don’t hate him. I want to make that clear but I don’t love him either. He is my dad and for that I’m grateful because I wouldn’t be here today if it wasn’t for him and my mom. I don’t have a relationship with him. He has contacted me and my sisters and I’ve wrote him a few e-mails. The major problem I have with him is that he is not a man of his word. I really can’t believe most of the things he says. The last time I got an e-mail from him he said he loves me and my sisters but those are just words. He doesn’t keep his promises either. I’ve gotten used to that a long time ago but it hurts me when he tells my sister Kristy things and then he doesn’t follow through.
Okay. Now to the good stuff. I’m so thankful for all the fathers out there that I’m friends with or that are my friend’s dads. It’s just so nice to see good and true examples of what being a dad is supposed to be. For them I will say Happy Father’s Day because they are worth it.
I also know that there is someone I can depend on and will always be there for me loving me, guiding me through my life. That is my father in heaven. He is the one that I can bring my problems, doubts and concerns that I have about life. I have a relationship with him and it’s awesome.
Thanks for reading this and I just want to say that if you are in the same situation then don’t be afraid to talk to god. Even if you feel that he has gone from your life, he isn’t. He has always been there for you and all you have to do is reach out and ask for him.