I don't like venting - I tend not to feel any better and I'm no very good at it to begin with. Instead I think I'll try a segue from one topic to another
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Here is the thing - I do my best to be emotionally supportive and like you suggest, I think I'm good at it. I just worry about having the rest of my stuff together so that stuff is meaningful and so I can keep doing it. I love helping people and I love that they help me - it feels important that I'm on solid ground so that I can do my best for others and also that I do something with the help I'm given. I did write that post when I was rather down, and I don't know if that makes sense, but I just worry about a solid foundation.
As for creatvity - you are sort of correct. It isn't a cheque or financial success that I think about, but I do look to the potential evolution of something. I'm so happy with the band - the worry comes from thinking "how long does it keep working this way" and hoping we can do this for a long time and write new music. Success (not huge success, but getting your name out there) is the most direct way I can think of to keep expermenting and enjoying music.
Writing is a bit more poignant - I do think about a finished product (not that can be sold, just finishing a big book or something) and that hampers me - I know I should just write, but when I sit down and consider topics, I gravitate towards a big outline instead of just relaxing. Sometimes relaxed, fun little bits come out - but they are rare.
So you've sort of hit the nail on the head. I know I have worth as a friend, and as for creating, it isn't about money .... but I am unclear as of how to solidify things for myself and Anna (and I'm still a bit of a slack at University) and I do look too far ahead with music and writing. I'll keep trying - the answers are just rather nebulous at the moment. Thanks though, your words help a lot. You're a kind soul.
You can spell here any way you like. Hope all is well out in Edmonchuck.
One thing worth mentioning - our honeymoon (June 3 - 17) Starts in Calgary and goes through Jasper. Perhaps we could find you for lunch in Edmonton befor we head west. Let me know if that has a chance of working.
Here is the thing - I do my best to be emotionally supportive and like you suggest, I think I'm good at it. I just worry about having the rest of my stuff together so that stuff is meaningful and so I can keep doing it. I love helping people and I love that they help me - it feels important that I'm on solid ground so that I can do my best for others and also that I do something with the help I'm given. I did write that post when I was rather down, and I don't know if that makes sense, but I just worry about a solid foundation.
As for creatvity - you are sort of correct. It isn't a cheque or financial success that I think about, but I do look to the potential evolution of something. I'm so happy with the band - the worry comes from thinking "how long does it keep working this way" and hoping we can do this for a long time and write new music. Success (not huge success, but getting your name out there) is the most direct way I can think of to keep expermenting and enjoying music.
Writing is a bit more poignant - I do think about a finished product (not that can be sold, just finishing a big book or something) and that hampers me - I know I should just write, but when I sit down and consider topics, I gravitate towards a big outline instead of just relaxing. Sometimes relaxed, fun little bits come out - but they are rare.
So you've sort of hit the nail on the head. I know I have worth as a friend, and as for creating, it isn't about money .... but I am unclear as of how to solidify things for myself and Anna (and I'm still a bit of a slack at University) and I do look too far ahead with music and writing. I'll keep trying - the answers are just rather nebulous at the moment. Thanks though, your words help a lot. You're a kind soul.
You can spell here any way you like. Hope all is well out in Edmonchuck.
One thing worth mentioning - our honeymoon (June 3 - 17) Starts in Calgary and goes through Jasper. Perhaps we could find you for lunch in Edmonton befor we head west. Let me know if that has a chance of working.
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