I just can't fathom this...
After watching several "Friends" reruns, thinking it was earlier, I got up to see what time it was. Something compelled me to check my friends list. As I did, the first thing I read shook me more than I've been shaken in months.
One of my
oldest and dearest LJ friends passed away very unexpectedly tonight. There are no words I can say to explain how stunned and shocked I am. He had been there for me practically since my very first journal's inception in 2001. To me, he was someone that I thought would always be there, and now he isn't, and it makes me so unbelievably sad. I never got the opportunity to meet him and give him a huge hug and tell him how much I loved him as a friend. I talked to him on the phone once or twice, and I wish it could have been more. Christmas 2004, he made it possible for me to get the best gift I could have gotten that year, the ROTK EE DVD, which was the only thing I wanted that year. If it hadn't been for Joe, it wouldn't have been possible. I've always loved him for that. He was so generous and kind.
Hopefully, though, he is up there watching out for those he cared about. I hope I'm one of those people, because I could always use another guardian angel... and he's one of the best. I'm just sorry I didn't take his advice while he was still here. Now I'm forever going to feel guilty about that, and I hope he'll forgive me.
Bethanna, you and those sweet wonderful boys are in my thoughts. It just seems so unfair because you two were about to start a new journey together. I'm glad you had the time you did, though, and I send you all my love and prayers. I'm so sorry for your loss. Those of us who knew and loved him will always, ALWAYS remember him.
This was his final comment to me. I'm glad he got to see her and know that she has brought me happiness because he always felt like I deserve it, even though I may not feel that way about myself, and even though in recent months we hadn't talked as much as we used to.
I love you, Joe, and I'm going to miss the hell out of you. Take care of my Merlin for me until I see you both again someday.
One of my
oldest and dearest LJ friends passed away very unexpectedly tonight. There are no words I can say to explain how stunned and shocked I am. He had been there for me practically since my very first journal's inception in 2001. To me, he was someone that I thought would always be there, and now he isn't, and it makes me so unbelievably sad. I never got the opportunity to meet him and give him a huge hug and tell him how much I loved him as a friend. I talked to him on the phone once or twice, and I wish it could have been more. Christmas 2004, he made it possible for me to get the best gift I could have gotten that year, the ROTK EE DVD, which was the only thing I wanted that year. If it hadn't been for Joe, it wouldn't have been possible. I've always loved him for that. He was so generous and kind.
Hopefully, though, he is up there watching out for those he cared about. I hope I'm one of those people, because I could always use another guardian angel... and he's one of the best. I'm just sorry I didn't take his advice while he was still here. Now I'm forever going to feel guilty about that, and I hope he'll forgive me.
Bethanna, you and those sweet wonderful boys are in my thoughts. It just seems so unfair because you two were about to start a new journey together. I'm glad you had the time you did, though, and I send you all my love and prayers. I'm so sorry for your loss. Those of us who knew and loved him will always, ALWAYS remember him.
This was his final comment to me. I'm glad he got to see her and know that she has brought me happiness because he always felt like I deserve it, even though I may not feel that way about myself, and even though in recent months we hadn't talked as much as we used to.
I love you, Joe, and I'm going to miss the hell out of you. Take care of my Merlin for me until I see you both again someday.