we're still so young, desperate for attention
i'm not gonna lie; it's a good time to be me.
you know those times where you just feel good about stuff even though nothing that should affect your emotions is happening? i don't know, i'm just feeling good right now. i think i'm so surrounded by things i like that the knowledge that that when something ends, something else awesome is there to take its place.
last week, when i was in barnes & noble making the employees hunt down the new Frank Delaney book, Tipperary, for me, I decided I would start listening to the newer incarnation of Books on Tape, Books on CD, in the car as I spend about three hours driving every day. And I found out there are EXPENSIVE! And I found out that I had already read everything in the $20 range, and I was not going to spend that much money on something I already owned. So I bought The Scarlet Letter on CD, as it was not too expensive and I wanted to try Books on CD out and I had never read it (gasp.)
So it turns out that I could concentrate on the story while still driving safely, so I decided to check out the selection at my local library. They had a lot of books on tape, but not so many on CD. However, I did manage to luck out and find Holidays on Ice by David Sedaris, as read by the author. I started listening to it in the car on the way to work, and I was fucking dying before I even got out of my driveway. It was a grand trip to to work for once.
Then I got to work, with my newly-updated iPod. I charge it every few days, but I don't really update the content very often. Last night, post-library, I decided it was time to raid my 17-year-old emo brother's iTunes because... um... ... ... (he had a Fall Out Boy album I didn't have.) I don't know where the hell my interest in Fall Out Boy came from. My roommate burned me a copy of From Under the Cork Tree in, oh, 2005, and I probably listened to it a total of three times. When I got back from Ireland, I burned myself a copy of Infinity On High from Emo Kevin's music collection because I, ashamedly, liked the song Thanks For the Memories (I don't know how to correctly abbreviate that... Thnks Fr th Mmrs maybe?). However, I never listened to anything but that song on the CD as the only other song I knew, This Ain't a Scene, has the most fucking retarded lyrics I have ever heard in my life.
Then, sometime last week or the week before, I decided that the songs "Champagne For My Real Friends, Real Pain For My Sham Friends", "Get Busy Living or Get Busy Dying", and "XO" were the greatest things ever written in the history of ever. Then I looked at the fabled pictures of Pete Wentz naked and I wanted to throw up, but I still liked the songs and started listening to the other CD as well. Then it all spiraled out of emo control...
So back to me raiding Emo Kevin's iTunes. It turns out he actually listens to more rap than emo, but he has multiple albums by Hawthorne Heights and Motion City Soundtrack, so the nickname I have given him is staying. I ended up burning: 1 Fall Out Boy album; 2 My Chemical Romance albums; 1 Brand New album; 1 Dashboard Confessional album; and, the album that is truly the undoing of all cool points I have ever earned in my entire life: 1 PANIC! AT THE DISCO album.
So I never knew much about Panic! At the Disco. I knew that song about closing a goddamn door. I knew that they are one of those bands that is composed entirely of robots that attempt to look like teenage boys in eyeliner (example). I knew that "I Write Sins Not Tragedies" sounds kinda a little/lot bit like Fall Out Boy.
I did not know that most of the members are two years my junior, which makes some of them even younger than my sister (this freaks me out.)
I did not know that they were The Naked Member of Fall Out Boy's pet project.
I did not know that the singer, who sounds almost exactly like Patrick Stump from Fall Out Boy, actually SINGS a few lines on a Fall Out Boy song (If you are interested: in "7 Minutes in Heaven (Atavan Halen)" Fall Out Boy Guy sings "I keep telling myself, I keep telling myself, I'm not the desperate type, but you've got me looking in through blinds", then it sounds like it repeats "I keep telling myself, I keep telling myself..." BUT it is actually Dude From Panic! At the Disco. Seriously, it BLEW MY FUCKING MIND when I listened to it closely... in other news, I have just turned 14 years old and I have nothing better to get excited about than this.)
I also did not know that "A Fever You Can't Sweat Out" is THE MOST ADDICTIVE ALBUM IN THE HISTORY OF RECORDED MUSIC.
You know when you love something, but you realize it's definitely not cool, and not even all that great, but you love it anyway? This happens to me a lot, with the specific example of "Hollyoaks" coming to mind. I am in the same boat with Panic! At the Disco/Fall Out Boy right now. I realize they are DEFINITELY not cool for a 22-year-old with a job in the publishing industry to be listening to. I realize that the two bands sound almost exactly alike, voiding whatever originality was there at the start. I realize that by declaring my love for them I am essentially the same as a 14-year-old girl. I also realize that I don't give a shit and listening to this makes me feel silly and dancy.
So in conclusion, it's a good time to be me because:
you know those times where you just feel good about stuff even though nothing that should affect your emotions is happening? i don't know, i'm just feeling good right now. i think i'm so surrounded by things i like that the knowledge that that when something ends, something else awesome is there to take its place.
last week, when i was in barnes & noble making the employees hunt down the new Frank Delaney book, Tipperary, for me, I decided I would start listening to the newer incarnation of Books on Tape, Books on CD, in the car as I spend about three hours driving every day. And I found out there are EXPENSIVE! And I found out that I had already read everything in the $20 range, and I was not going to spend that much money on something I already owned. So I bought The Scarlet Letter on CD, as it was not too expensive and I wanted to try Books on CD out and I had never read it (gasp.)
So it turns out that I could concentrate on the story while still driving safely, so I decided to check out the selection at my local library. They had a lot of books on tape, but not so many on CD. However, I did manage to luck out and find Holidays on Ice by David Sedaris, as read by the author. I started listening to it in the car on the way to work, and I was fucking dying before I even got out of my driveway. It was a grand trip to to work for once.
Then I got to work, with my newly-updated iPod. I charge it every few days, but I don't really update the content very often. Last night, post-library, I decided it was time to raid my 17-year-old emo brother's iTunes because... um... ... ... (he had a Fall Out Boy album I didn't have.) I don't know where the hell my interest in Fall Out Boy came from. My roommate burned me a copy of From Under the Cork Tree in, oh, 2005, and I probably listened to it a total of three times. When I got back from Ireland, I burned myself a copy of Infinity On High from Emo Kevin's music collection because I, ashamedly, liked the song Thanks For the Memories (I don't know how to correctly abbreviate that... Thnks Fr th Mmrs maybe?). However, I never listened to anything but that song on the CD as the only other song I knew, This Ain't a Scene, has the most fucking retarded lyrics I have ever heard in my life.
Then, sometime last week or the week before, I decided that the songs "Champagne For My Real Friends, Real Pain For My Sham Friends", "Get Busy Living or Get Busy Dying", and "XO" were the greatest things ever written in the history of ever. Then I looked at the fabled pictures of Pete Wentz naked and I wanted to throw up, but I still liked the songs and started listening to the other CD as well. Then it all spiraled out of emo control...
So back to me raiding Emo Kevin's iTunes. It turns out he actually listens to more rap than emo, but he has multiple albums by Hawthorne Heights and Motion City Soundtrack, so the nickname I have given him is staying. I ended up burning: 1 Fall Out Boy album; 2 My Chemical Romance albums; 1 Brand New album; 1 Dashboard Confessional album; and, the album that is truly the undoing of all cool points I have ever earned in my entire life: 1 PANIC! AT THE DISCO album.
So I never knew much about Panic! At the Disco. I knew that song about closing a goddamn door. I knew that they are one of those bands that is composed entirely of robots that attempt to look like teenage boys in eyeliner (example). I knew that "I Write Sins Not Tragedies" sounds kinda a little/lot bit like Fall Out Boy.
I did not know that most of the members are two years my junior, which makes some of them even younger than my sister (this freaks me out.)
I did not know that they were The Naked Member of Fall Out Boy's pet project.
I did not know that the singer, who sounds almost exactly like Patrick Stump from Fall Out Boy, actually SINGS a few lines on a Fall Out Boy song (If you are interested: in "7 Minutes in Heaven (Atavan Halen)" Fall Out Boy Guy sings "I keep telling myself, I keep telling myself, I'm not the desperate type, but you've got me looking in through blinds", then it sounds like it repeats "I keep telling myself, I keep telling myself..." BUT it is actually Dude From Panic! At the Disco. Seriously, it BLEW MY FUCKING MIND when I listened to it closely... in other news, I have just turned 14 years old and I have nothing better to get excited about than this.)
I also did not know that "A Fever You Can't Sweat Out" is THE MOST ADDICTIVE ALBUM IN THE HISTORY OF RECORDED MUSIC.
You know when you love something, but you realize it's definitely not cool, and not even all that great, but you love it anyway? This happens to me a lot, with the specific example of "Hollyoaks" coming to mind. I am in the same boat with Panic! At the Disco/Fall Out Boy right now. I realize they are DEFINITELY not cool for a 22-year-old with a job in the publishing industry to be listening to. I realize that the two bands sound almost exactly alike, voiding whatever originality was there at the start. I realize that by declaring my love for them I am essentially the same as a 14-year-old girl. I also realize that I don't give a shit and listening to this makes me feel silly and dancy.
So in conclusion, it's a good time to be me because:
- I have been listening to Books on CD in the car
- I have been reading Tipperary at home.
- I have been listening to Fall Out Boy and Panic! At the Disco on my iPod at work
- I borrowed the first series of Little Britain from the library and it's freaking hilarious. (I know I didn't get into this here, but I figure I've gone on long enough.)
- And now I'm off to listen to more music while waiting for good things to come on TV. And no, I do not mean Grey's Anatomy.