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i dont know what happened, i was a fuck up till freshman year in highschool...
when i started high school i started on the right foot making a 3.5gpa, staying after school for work, and even summer school to get ahead so i could graduated early... i was doing really well with my life, art, and school work
sophomore year, thing continued to go well for me, ups and downs here and there, but my art was becoming more challenging, unique, and beautiful... school was still great making A's and B's. i even took another summer school class to get ahead...
around my jr year i started to slack off but never with my art work, this is the year where i did nothing but ceramics, i would stay after school every day, sometimes staying till 9 at night... i missed tons of school days but my grades never faltered from it.
Senior year (even though it was only half a yr long), i was either too tired to get up to go to school because i either didnt go home or got home around 5am, or still drunk from the night before... i still made the grades, but i was also taking bullshit classes (only classes i had left to take to graduate)... i still graduated early in january... but missing all those school days and fucking around almost fucked up what i planed since i started highschool (graduating early)
when i graduated my fathers death soon followed.. since then nothing has gone up hill for me... 1st i got kicked out of my house a week before i turned 18, moved in with my sister and had to watch her fall into a black depressive state, quit my job because everything was overwhelming, i then move out onto campus which was fun at first then slowly backfired... moved back in with my sister this time into a house she bought, still no job (i have tried for months to get a job, but im also being picky), no boyfriend since i was 16, tired of guys treating me like trash... all this together put me into a somewhat sycotic stage and so i slit my wrist went to the hospital, i had to have surgery to connect my wrist together, stayed for 3days, had to deal with people that were close to me with shame and embarrassment in my eyes...
now today, i dont feel like doing anything with my life, no motivation what so ever.... i was eager to go to college, to get my mind out of this depressive state and get on with my life, but that backfired... so i skipped my classes, and one by one dropped out of all my classes.. so now i have to pay my school back 3,000 dollars... im also no longer dedicated to my art work, at all... i mean i want to, i just dont.
also i went to dayton.... oh dayton, oh how i love dayton... NOT... so me tera and amber get to dayton to find out that we are now surrounded by the most annoying and nerdy ppl i have ever met in my life... so after dealing with that, we decided to leave and get back to columbus ASAP... so they voted that i drive because i drive fast... they then talk me into driving even faster... i got pulled over going 105mph... now i have to go to court, pay my ticket, pay court cost's... and going that fast is considered reckless operation, so i might get my license taken away and to get them back after 30days is 200 some dollars more
its like no matter what i do, life is like "fuck you katie" and everything just goes down the drain, and gets even worse
when i started high school i started on the right foot making a 3.5gpa, staying after school for work, and even summer school to get ahead so i could graduated early... i was doing really well with my life, art, and school work
sophomore year, thing continued to go well for me, ups and downs here and there, but my art was becoming more challenging, unique, and beautiful... school was still great making A's and B's. i even took another summer school class to get ahead...
around my jr year i started to slack off but never with my art work, this is the year where i did nothing but ceramics, i would stay after school every day, sometimes staying till 9 at night... i missed tons of school days but my grades never faltered from it.
Senior year (even though it was only half a yr long), i was either too tired to get up to go to school because i either didnt go home or got home around 5am, or still drunk from the night before... i still made the grades, but i was also taking bullshit classes (only classes i had left to take to graduate)... i still graduated early in january... but missing all those school days and fucking around almost fucked up what i planed since i started highschool (graduating early)
when i graduated my fathers death soon followed.. since then nothing has gone up hill for me... 1st i got kicked out of my house a week before i turned 18, moved in with my sister and had to watch her fall into a black depressive state, quit my job because everything was overwhelming, i then move out onto campus which was fun at first then slowly backfired... moved back in with my sister this time into a house she bought, still no job (i have tried for months to get a job, but im also being picky), no boyfriend since i was 16, tired of guys treating me like trash... all this together put me into a somewhat sycotic stage and so i slit my wrist went to the hospital, i had to have surgery to connect my wrist together, stayed for 3days, had to deal with people that were close to me with shame and embarrassment in my eyes...
now today, i dont feel like doing anything with my life, no motivation what so ever.... i was eager to go to college, to get my mind out of this depressive state and get on with my life, but that backfired... so i skipped my classes, and one by one dropped out of all my classes.. so now i have to pay my school back 3,000 dollars... im also no longer dedicated to my art work, at all... i mean i want to, i just dont.
also i went to dayton.... oh dayton, oh how i love dayton... NOT... so me tera and amber get to dayton to find out that we are now surrounded by the most annoying and nerdy ppl i have ever met in my life... so after dealing with that, we decided to leave and get back to columbus ASAP... so they voted that i drive because i drive fast... they then talk me into driving even faster... i got pulled over going 105mph... now i have to go to court, pay my ticket, pay court cost's... and going that fast is considered reckless operation, so i might get my license taken away and to get them back after 30days is 200 some dollars more
its like no matter what i do, life is like "fuck you katie" and everything just goes down the drain, and gets even worse