but lately i've been jaded, life got so complicated.
tomorrow at this time, i'll be boarding a plane and departing from virginia. traveling 2,000 miles to san antonio, texas.
the distance is what bothers me more than anything. i feel like i'll be too far away for anyone to care. i'll just disappear. forgotten. life here will move on without me, and i'll be stuck in one place 2,000 miles from everything that means anything to me.
i expected to be excited about this trip. the thought of leaving makes me nascious. all week i've laid in bed restless, thinking that i'll feel this way until i get back.
iloveyou.