sing the sorrow
For some odd reason that title captures me. It kinda represents what i feel right now. So muc mixed emotions going on right now. getting caught up in everyons drama and lives i never have time for myself.. i just wish i can be with steven everyday. he makes my problems go away. he makes me so happy. We have been together for a very long time. and i wanna treasure every moment. even the ones i mess up for us. it seems i try to make our relationship go down the drain. i'm not so good with relationships. i wish i was a way better girlfriend. steven could do soo much bettter. i cant believe he chooses me. there are way hotter gurls out there. and i'm his first girlfriend. and i feel privleged. if you know me well i rant alot. and thats what i'm doing at this moment. there is way alot more i can write but some things i cant say on here.
well at this moment i'm just chillin at my gramma's here on the computer. my gramma just got a new sewing maching so my mom is messing with it. we havent had our phone on in a while cuz we couldnt pay our phone bill. justins getting paid tomorrow so hopefully yeah. i hardly get to talk to steven anymore. in vball we took our individual and team pics today. i wanted to get some cuz this is my senior year and i wanna treasure it. and being a varsity player. but yeah no money. sucks so much. man tv has so much drama . some doctor or investigation show is on. and its annoying me. i hate alo of drama but all there is here and a bunch of drama. i know ppl have been talking alot of trash already about me. ppl just stare like .. like..hmm. i don know.
we're starting district thius coming up week for volleyball and hoipefully we will do good. we're a badass team but we need to talk to eachother more. thts our only problem. when im not playing and sitting onthe bench i nearly lose my voice everynite yelling for everyone cuz no one talks. we jus got our new uniforms i wanted my number seven jersey but .. yeah.. nothing seems to go my way. but oh well. i'm just looking forward to graduating yup. may 26 is my graduation date! and i'm counting.. well not really i need to focus.. in about 15 mins i'm gonna head back to my house and practice my government speech for tomorrow. and finish my physics.. hopefully sarah can come over and help me..she lives literally 2 secs across from me. (apartments) but my mom doesnt like that family cuz she says they're drug dealer.. umm..nah i dont think so i know sarah. even though this town is full of druggies. but i think i'm going to go for now cuz i'm ranting on about to much shit! so .. thanz for reading if you actually read all of this.. yoru a true friend.
<3<3<3 Nicole
remember: if you love someone let them know before its too late. you dont know whats gonna happen at any given moment!!!
well at this moment i'm just chillin at my gramma's here on the computer. my gramma just got a new sewing maching so my mom is messing with it. we havent had our phone on in a while cuz we couldnt pay our phone bill. justins getting paid tomorrow so hopefully yeah. i hardly get to talk to steven anymore. in vball we took our individual and team pics today. i wanted to get some cuz this is my senior year and i wanna treasure it. and being a varsity player. but yeah no money. sucks so much. man tv has so much drama . some doctor or investigation show is on. and its annoying me. i hate alo of drama but all there is here and a bunch of drama. i know ppl have been talking alot of trash already about me. ppl just stare like .. like..hmm. i don know.
we're starting district thius coming up week for volleyball and hoipefully we will do good. we're a badass team but we need to talk to eachother more. thts our only problem. when im not playing and sitting onthe bench i nearly lose my voice everynite yelling for everyone cuz no one talks. we jus got our new uniforms i wanted my number seven jersey but .. yeah.. nothing seems to go my way. but oh well. i'm just looking forward to graduating yup. may 26 is my graduation date! and i'm counting.. well not really i need to focus.. in about 15 mins i'm gonna head back to my house and practice my government speech for tomorrow. and finish my physics.. hopefully sarah can come over and help me..she lives literally 2 secs across from me. (apartments) but my mom doesnt like that family cuz she says they're drug dealer.. umm..nah i dont think so i know sarah. even though this town is full of druggies. but i think i'm going to go for now cuz i'm ranting on about to much shit! so .. thanz for reading if you actually read all of this.. yoru a true friend.
<3<3<3 Nicole
remember: if you love someone let them know before its too late. you dont know whats gonna happen at any given moment!!!