Something You Need to Know Even Though I Don’t Want To Tell You

[lusterkaboom]

  I always forget that people don't know what has been going on in my personal life as of late. Truth is, it has not been going so well in the Kaboom household. I have put off blogging about it because we were working on things, hoping to get back together and make it work. Amber and the kids moved out last September into an apartment and I have been living here at the house. I know this is a really crappy way to let everyone know but there are just so many of you out of the loop and I wears on me to talk about so much. It has been really the hardest thing in my life to do and I have been completely bummed out about it so please don't ask about it and don't give me any more pep talks. So many people have told me I just need to make it work, but let me tell you that is so much easier said than done. I want 2009 to be a fresh start, I want to be optimistic about everything and I want to focus on my art. Amber and I talk every day and she has been and still is the mother of my children. We don't fight anymore, we have actually grown to appreciate each other more (well at least I have) now that we are apart and see what great people we can be. She will always be precious to me. The children are great, Lily and Lando have started daycare and are turning into fine little human beings. Believe me, it upsets me just as much to write this as I'm sure it is to read this so don't make a big deal out of it. I just want everyone to know without having to really say it outloud.

Oh and BTW, I am not interested in dating any of your cousins or sisters or brothers or mothers. And no none of you have my permission or blessing to ask Amber out on a date, EVER!

Take care in 2009, Happy New Year everyone.