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I feel like I've been letting down so many people lately. My friends and parents especially. I odnt like to feel like a failure, or someone that you can't trust. But maybe thats just true. I fuck up so much. And I can rarely say no to anything. God damn this fucking submissive personality. I dont see why...I seem like such a fucking strong willed person, but deep down I'm not.
Maybe I just need a break from it all, focus on MY life. (Or lack there of) I've been helping like a thousand people through all their shit lately. Break ups, family issues, depression, broken friendships, all that shit, and now its time to not listen to other peoples problems and take some time for myself. Seriously. I have my own issues but i always keep them up inside, I basically dont let anyone in and its why I have so few deep friends. I have like...two. I have a few other good friends, but i hardly tell them anything of my deep personal life, and I want to, but i just dont htink they want to hear it, so I keep the friendship light and pleasant and dont muddy it with things like feelings.
Maybe I just need a break from it all, focus on MY life. (Or lack there of) I've been helping like a thousand people through all their shit lately. Break ups, family issues, depression, broken friendships, all that shit, and now its time to not listen to other peoples problems and take some time for myself. Seriously. I have my own issues but i always keep them up inside, I basically dont let anyone in and its why I have so few deep friends. I have like...two. I have a few other good friends, but i hardly tell them anything of my deep personal life, and I want to, but i just dont htink they want to hear it, so I keep the friendship light and pleasant and dont muddy it with things like feelings.