Like snow.
The days get better as they get worse. This life has a sad way of contridicting itself, and I feel like I can't do anything but watch it go by and either enjoy it or loathe it. Point being, my days don't seem to be very distinct anymore. I don't have bad days, and I don't really have good days either. Something always seems to balance them out evenly. Today was spicifically interesting. The day before Frank's big-18. I'm really happy for him, in a girlfriend kind of sense. I finished my book today. It took me less than two days to read. I was so captured by another one of Christopher Pike's books...like all of his books I sat in my room reading during the summer. When Zac was around. I smoked with Frank all day today, it put both of us in a good mood...and that alone was good enough for me. Just being with him feels right. I can almost feel myself married to him, as weird as that sounds. I can picture him comming home everyday and me being there, in a house of our own. I'm not unbelievably attracted to him, it's just like this emotional attatchment I've gained with spending time with him. It's a deep and childish thought, but I never can be too surprised with myself.
Tomorrow's Friday, and thank God. Today wasn't hard, and it's 12 on a Thursday ngiht, so I don't think tomorrow will be a big problem. All my big tests and whatnot, I took during the beginning of this week, so I should be fine. Cassy's mom's satying at her boyfriends Saturday night, so we have the night to ourselves. Thank God.
It's been hard for me not to appreciate things lately. Before, I'd walk outside into the winter cold and feel as if my whole life turned cold with my body. Now, I usually look outside during the afternoon and adore the sparkling layre of white that I know will cover the ground for the next month or two. Don't get me wrong though, I can't wait untill summer. When I can just walk outside bearly dressed and bake in the afternoon sun that just barely gives off a cheap warmth now in the cold month of February. I can't wait untill tomorrow....
Tomorrow's Friday, and thank God. Today wasn't hard, and it's 12 on a Thursday ngiht, so I don't think tomorrow will be a big problem. All my big tests and whatnot, I took during the beginning of this week, so I should be fine. Cassy's mom's satying at her boyfriends Saturday night, so we have the night to ourselves. Thank God.
It's been hard for me not to appreciate things lately. Before, I'd walk outside into the winter cold and feel as if my whole life turned cold with my body. Now, I usually look outside during the afternoon and adore the sparkling layre of white that I know will cover the ground for the next month or two. Don't get me wrong though, I can't wait untill summer. When I can just walk outside bearly dressed and bake in the afternoon sun that just barely gives off a cheap warmth now in the cold month of February. I can't wait untill tomorrow....