The bog O!
-Homisick
Well, i seem to be okay during the day but i get real depressed and homesick at night and cry alot. Mainly because i miss my friends and my mom. Its a totally diffrent lifestyle living with my dad. Most of you cant understand what im saying cause u never had to go through it or had a dad like mine. But its hard.
-The coach
Dad bought me some diet pills. There suppose to really really work.SO keep your fingers crossed!!! I have to clean my room today and hang all my shit up. God, i hate fucking cleaning. Yesturday i went with my step mom to the doctors house ( she works for him ) he loved me! they were so nice, i wish i culd live with them. We ate chinese afterwards then went to this cute little antique mall. I had a nice time. I returned my cowboy boots last night so i had some money untill i got a job. it sucked that was my christmas =\.I renter the notebook last night. i Was going to cuddle up in my bed and watch it and cry and have a depressing night but things changed.....
-The boy
Well i went to the gas station a couple nights ago and met some random dude. Well i dont know anybody so i decided to call him that night. We talked for a long time and last night he called me about 7 and said he wanted to see me . i was like mmk. So we met up last night and chilled for a little bit. He said he felt like the luckiest guy in ohio, and was making me feel so good. He opned my phone and it said " i love jamall". he touched my cheek and said, i bet he cant ever treat you like i could if u gave me the chance. Hes a nice boy, and VERY cute, but i love jamall. Its hard because i just want friends. i just want someone to hang out with. Why do guys always have to want either sex or a realshionship? i miss jamall.
-Friday night
Well tonight im that boy is taking me to dinner and to see harry potter, isnt that funny? im making him go watch harry potter ( LMFAO!!!!!). he also let me drive his car last night... hmmmm, ohio guys are easy push overs =D! then we are going back to his house to hang out with his brother and his girlfriend. Im trying to keep busy to keep my mind off things.
I love you guys, and miss you guys
soooooo much!
-Dwain your my your my Motivation,
-Mama your the reason i breathe
-Jamall your still my strength.
I love you.
xoxo,
Rachel