I've Missed You (Chapter 12/?)
Kris’s POV
Kris woke up with a smile on his face. Last night he had, had a dream about Adam, his gorgeous boyfriend. This dream wasn’t the usual sex dream he normally had, this one was different. Him and Adam we’re much older in this dream. The two men were laying down on a blanket spread out below them on the beach. Kris could practically feel the sun beating down on him. He looked to Adam who was calling out to a little boy, swimming in the water. “Don’t go too far! Stay where me and your dad can see you!” Adam yelled at the boy, before grabbing Kris’s hand. It was at that moment Kris had woken up.
Kris couldn’t believe it, at the age of seventeen, he was dreaming about being a dad. He had never thought of growing old with Adam, and that thought scared him, but at the same time it comforted him. He liked that idea. He understood that he and Adam had only been dating for 3 months now, but he could never imagine his life without him. It seemed to early to tell Adam this, but it was true, he wanted him forever. No matter what.
Kris pushed the thoughts of the future away, as he got ready for his day. Today he was going over to Matt’s house to watch the biggest baseball game of the season, and he was pumped. Kris had been waiting all year for this, and had several bets with different people on the winning team. He was very excited.
The day flew by quicker than Kris could even imagine, right now it was 7:00 pm and the game was in over time. Kris was yelling at the TV screen when his phone rang. It was Adam. He picked up his phone and quickly forgot about the game. “Kris, please come! Hurry! I’m on the corner of Jane and Beacon Dr., I’m hurt. I need you.” Adam quietly pleaded on the other side of the phone. “I’ll be right there! 5 minutes tops!” Kris quickly replied worriedly before hanging up the phone. He ran out of the house, yelling a quick “Matt, I have to go, I’m so sorry bye!” and slamming the door behind him.
He sped the whole way there and got there in exactly five minutes. He was scared. Adam was hurt. He didn’t know how bad, and he really did not want to know. When he got out of his car he didn’t see Adam, and he began to panic. Where was his boyfriend? That’s when he heard it. A soft cry. He ran as quickly as he could in the direction of the noise, and that’s when he saw Adam.
Adam was leaning against the dark walls of the vacant building, softly crying to himself. His favourite jacket thrown on the pavement in front of him, ripped and torn, not even wearable anymore, and his makeup running down his face. He didn’t look up when Kris came and put a hand on his shoulder, instead he flinched away. “Baby, baby! Calm down, you’re safe now, you’re safe, I’m here.” he whispered, pulling his boyfriend close, as tears began to well up in his eyes. Adam just nodded, allowing the tears to come out faster now. “What happened Addie?” Kris asked with concern. “They were following me, they wanted to rape me, the hurt me, so badly.” Adam bawled, his tears falling freely onto Kris’s arms. “you’re such a strong boy Adam. I love you so much,” Kris assured. He took his sweater off, and put it on the trembling boy. “Can you move?” Kris wondered. “I don’t think I can walk. My leg, it hurts to much.” Adam whispered, flinching at the thought of whatever had happened. “We need to get you to a hospital,” Kris said, before he began to pick up the older boy and carry him back to the car.
The boys drove silently to the hospital, but the whole time their hands were connected. Kris was scared, Adam was getting so much stronger, so much more self confident and this, this could ruin it all. He had a million questions to ask Adam, but he knew now was not the time, Adam needed just his sympathy and love right now, nothing else.
Three hours later Kris was waiting in the hospital lobby pacing back and forth. They had told him that they would notify him as soon as he was allowed to see Adam, but still nothing.
Another hour passed before a doctor came out to lead Kris to Adam’s room. The doctor had informed him that Adam was extremely tired due to anxiety and had a broken leg form whatever had happened, but the good news was Adam wouldn’t have to stay the night, he could go home in just a few hours. Once inside the room he saw the black haired boy sleeping softly, a cast around his leg. He knelt by his bed, grabbing his hand, whispering soft “I love you’s.” and “I need you’s”, as he allowed his own tears to fall freely onto his lap.
Adam woke up around an hour later, and Kris quickly got to his feet, brushing away the tears he didn’t want Adam to see. “How are you feeling baby?” he asked. “It hurts, and I’m tired but I could be better.” Adam smiled sadly. “ Well, the good news is, in around an hour you get to go home, and get some proper rest in your bed.” Kris tried to smile. “Yeah.” Adam replied, seeming distant.
The car ride home was quiet. Almost awkwardly quiet. Both boys didn’t know what to say, so they said nothing at all. When Kris pulled up to Adam’s house, Adam didn’t get out of the car, and instead stared out the window for a good two minutes before speaking.
“Look Kris, what happened tonight, scared me so much. I could be dead right now. You know why it happened? Because I’m gay. I can’t do this right now Kris. We need to take a break from our relationship, it’s not doing me any good right now. I love you so much. But I just cant do it right now.” Adam stammered, looking at his hands. “ What are you talking about Adam? What we have is so good, we can’t end this.” Kris pleaded, staring at the other boy. “I didn’t say we were ending it, I just said a break, I need time to get myself in order.” Adam sighed, before getting out of the car and closing the door behind him.
Kris watched as Adam walked up to the front door, he was still wearing his sweater. For some reason that tiny thought brought tears to Kris’s eyes. Before he knew it, he was bawling. He loved Adam, and now he felt like all of this was his fault. He felt like he had hurt Adam. Now, Adam was gone.
Kris didn’t know how long he spent crying in Adam’s driveway, but it seemed like forever. There was an empty hole in his heart, that could only be filled with Adam, who was no longer here.
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