"if it were just a little colder, i'd say i was in hell"
shit i havent updated in like 3 days so i'll just list what i did:
-saturday went to the movies & hung out with shan, meg and all her friends. I kinda felt out of place because i wasn't really friends with any of them but most of them knew who i was. shannon sleptover and yea..
-sunday i droped off shannon at like 11 because i was going to the movies with Lindsay, Steve and Megan. We saw Mr.Deeds (don't see it, sandler is the only funny part about the movie, otherwise, it SUCKS) after the movie we all went to steves house and hung out & went swimming. Then around 5:30 i went home and Melissa came over. We were bored and Meghan said she was going down to the boardwalk, so me and Melissa got droped off at Subway, got some food, and walked down to the boardwalk & ate our food. Meghan was down there but I was too scared to walk down and say hi because she was with all her friends so me and Melissa walked to Shannons. Then Shannon got all depressing so me and Melissa left around 9:15 and walked down to the boardwalk & I called meghan and she said to come down so we did. Everyone was hitting on Melissa & It was soo funny because none of the people are melissas type of people. This one kid was like "Show me your boobs!" It was funny but the kid was like being serious lol i felt bad for meliss. But it was funny. Then melissa sleptover..
-Today(Monday) we just hung out all day and we walked to these condos by my house and played on the playground lol it was so much fun tho. Next time we're going to go in the pool. They didn't even notice we didn't live there so hey why not. The worst they can do is kick us out, it's not like their going to send us to jail lol. Then me and meliss went to subway again and walked downtown, we saw shannon at this parking lot thingy where everyone hangs out and so we got a ride with shannon back to her house. And then we hung out there.. ya then we walked down to the boardwalk around 9:00 again and talked to jill. Then my mom picked us up and we went back to my house & then around 11 melissas mom picked her up. And now here i am. lol.
Shannon told me that she saw John today and she was telling me how he looks sooo nice and stuff. I wanted to kill her! I'm trying to get rid of the kid and she's telling me how nice he looks & he got a haircut and shit. Arg i wanted to kill her. And then like ever since he stoped calling and shit she was like "Im going to have a talk with him as soon as i talk to him" and today was the first time she saw him in like 3 weeks, and did she ask him what was going on and why he wasnt calling me? No.. and she probably won't see him for another like month ethier because he never comes around and shes going to NH in a couple weeks. Arg whatever. I need to get over him and find a new guy that'll actually respect me and shit becuase I TOLD him that one of my biggest fears was rejection & i hardly let my guard down to anyone, but i trusted him and he just hurt me. So i'm kinda upset about that. But i duno, im guna go.. byebye