Oh man..
The boy he definitly has my heart now. I can only hope for the best, think positive because your mind does create the reality. I don't think I can handle being hurt again, but well you can't control that either. I hope we successfully work through our communication difficulties.
He thinks I am hung up on the past, and maybe I am but not in the way he thinks I am. I don't want my exes back because they are losers - well they weren't good for me at the time - and I say that because I should respect our good times. What bothers me about the past is how I didn't see the guys for who they are, how I tolerated their selfish crap and didn't believe I deserved better. Being with this guy and seeing his consideration and compassion is making me scream as to why I never thought I deserved this before, and in that way I guess I still have some work to do.
Growing up is tough isn't it.
He thinks I am hung up on the past, and maybe I am but not in the way he thinks I am. I don't want my exes back because they are losers - well they weren't good for me at the time - and I say that because I should respect our good times. What bothers me about the past is how I didn't see the guys for who they are, how I tolerated their selfish crap and didn't believe I deserved better. Being with this guy and seeing his consideration and compassion is making me scream as to why I never thought I deserved this before, and in that way I guess I still have some work to do.
Growing up is tough isn't it.