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well today i had to empty out my room and i found a whole box of note/letter/card/pictures i forgot i had. i saved mostly everything anybody wrote me and i guess i put it all in this box. anyway i opened it up and i spent like two hours just going through and reading all the stuff in the box which made me start crying. i realized how much i missed all the people i was really good friends with and don't really talk to anymore. the funny thing is i still remember every inside joke and nickname that was used. this is gonna sound really stupid but even if she is increadably mean to me most of the time i really miss bimmy... i found a lot from her. then becca i miss alot to, but that one was my fault and i can't talk to her after ignoring her from the beginning of the year. there was A LOT of stuff from gina and lina and even though i still talk to them, they made my cry the most... mostly because i'm still friends w/ them. it's not that i don't like them but looking at everything made me realize how much they HAVE actually changed and how different we all are now.
i was over lina's house w/ the two of them this wends. and basically the whole time i was "the different one" i was constantly trying to justify myself because i didn't want to wear black or because i don't really like rock or because i watch other things on tv. the whole time they ignored me or just plain made fun of me and the fact that i cheer. i don't think that i'm going to go anywhere else w/ just the two of them anymore. we just don't really fit together anymore.
i was over lina's house w/ the two of them this wends. and basically the whole time i was "the different one" i was constantly trying to justify myself because i didn't want to wear black or because i don't really like rock or because i watch other things on tv. the whole time they ignored me or just plain made fun of me and the fact that i cheer. i don't think that i'm going to go anywhere else w/ just the two of them anymore. we just don't really fit together anymore.