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When I get a text message my phone used to play my voice saying, "I got a message! I got a message! Yaaaaaaay!!"
Now it plays Phil's voice saying, "Dear Laurie, You have a message. Love, Phil."
It's a weird feeling now getting texts. Something about the juxtaposition of how happy I am hearing my friend's voice with the jolt of sadness realizing that he's not actually in the room, and won't be again for a very long time. I felt sick talking to my best friend today and realizing that I'm not going to be an active part of his life anymore. Even worse imagining my life without him in it. (Although the logical part of my brain would like to point out that I might have just felt sick because I am in fact actually sick.) My other best friend is moving to Georgia tomorrow. Alone and ill does not seem like a fair combination.
To end on a positive note, I got to see two ligers, and pet a baby cow. There was also a demolition derby, but if you live in Northern Virginia you pretty much get to see cars running into each other on a daily basis.
Now it plays Phil's voice saying, "Dear Laurie, You have a message. Love, Phil."
It's a weird feeling now getting texts. Something about the juxtaposition of how happy I am hearing my friend's voice with the jolt of sadness realizing that he's not actually in the room, and won't be again for a very long time. I felt sick talking to my best friend today and realizing that I'm not going to be an active part of his life anymore. Even worse imagining my life without him in it. (Although the logical part of my brain would like to point out that I might have just felt sick because I am in fact actually sick.) My other best friend is moving to Georgia tomorrow. Alone and ill does not seem like a fair combination.
To end on a positive note, I got to see two ligers, and pet a baby cow. There was also a demolition derby, but if you live in Northern Virginia you pretty much get to see cars running into each other on a daily basis.