Familiarity and attachments

Aug 13, 2009 14:01


I don't know how they can do this...well, I suppose knowing who 'they' are would help, but I'm not getting an answer on that.

MK's been transferred.  She found out this morning;  she's gone tomorrow.  Normally I'm much more protective of real names and identifiying details, but I'm upset.  She's at about half-term pregnant, did not apply for the transfer, nor did our VP...I haven't spoken to anyone who's happy about this.  And yet there she goes.  The one lady I could go just to chat with, the one who could get things done on the slightest hint...

Ugh.  But have to let go.  I can't stop it--especially not knowing where to start.  So while I definitely want to keep in touch with her, one of the very first people I met landing here, somehow I have to adapt.  Somehow.  I don't like this one bit.

But adapt, letting go of attachments as the Buddhists might say.  That feeling of screwing with your notion of home as I'd hinted at.  I noticed when i got back here that I wanted (and bought) a loaf of Omega Grain bread, the kind with the rye, anisette, and lord knows what else in it that makes it taste so good.  And then I wanted Thrifty Mint n' Chip ice cream to go with it, 'cos they'd taste perfect together, and it wasn't to be.  Mint ice cream is difficult to get here--the lovely green stuff impossible.  Yet my brain remembers last week when it was a simple drive away, and demands to know why I can't just run down to the store and get some.  I can't.  And something in my mind does not understand this.  I was on the plane thinking, I'm going back to L.A.  When I'd just come from there.  Couldn't wrap my brain around the notion that I was going back to Geumchon.  I don't know what the disconnect was, just knew it was there.

Wanted the aquatic-scent soap that I'd bought for my vacation, fully intending to leave it behind, strangely craving it when I got here.  Yet I have a bottle of very similarly scented oil that I use to freshen my bathroom.  No, said brain glitch, I want to lather up in that scent, why can't I?

Boy were the folks at Delphi happy to see me!  :P

Wanted to hug MK to make her feel better, but didn't know how to approach it, or how she would take it.  Hugs.  I definitely miss hugs already.

Young Yong now demands play, which he needs really.  Funny to hear him demand it though.  Seriously thought about another cat for him, but my place is the size of a hotel room (that is not a complaint, btw) and it will be hard enough making arrangements for him when I move on.  There's the chance I'll take him with me, and getting one on the plane (boat?) will be hard enough.

JY is on Facebook and sociable again, but I really need to watch money so going nuts with her, even with plenty of time off, is a no-no for now.  Dancing must happen again soon though.

Doctor wants me to back off coffee, he's said.  Had a massive latte last night,  Had donuts yesterday, which are definitely on the 'bad' list.  Paying for that today.  Of course, I haven't had coffee yet today...

Need to make a slideshow for class, but have to do that at PC 방 because it has to be done in Photobucket.  Then have to get Replay Media Catcher (the name really is here for my notes) to cap it in case Photobucket is blocked out there too.  Really not feeling any of that right now though.  Annoyed at how many of my pre-2008 photos are not anywhere handy.  Need to organize the harddrive yesterday...

Pray I get the laptop back, despite losing MK.  She ordered it, but who knows?  I'll go nuts (actually I'll just spend all my money at  PC 방) if I don't have a computer at home.

Not a great day.  Need coffee...

psychology, korea, school

Previous post Next post
Up