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I would love to re-open communications to that person. But I cannot get hurt again like I last time, what she did was wrong no doubt, but I have been friends with her for so long that it is odd to not have her at our little group and in my life. But what happened the first time was her fault, if I let myself be hurt again it is my fault. Boy I wish

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Sometimes saying sorry isnt enough to bring back what was torn apart. When this all happened it was like my life went numb. I had just been lied to and used by my best friend of almost seven years. When someone that hasbeen so close to you for so long, it hurts ten times more than someone you hardly know or arent very good friends with.I remember talking to people and realizing just how much SHE meant to me, and how much I was willing to sacrifice to make her life just a little bit better. How much I would have given, and gave, just to see a smile on their face. Now I may not be the most sensitive person in the world, nor am I the most bitter. But I have been told that I am extremely compassionate and thta I trust too much. Maybe it was my fault for letting what happen go on for so long without sayin anything. I dont think anyone knows how long I have sat in my room at two in the morning just thinking, about what to do, whether to forgive her, if I think she will do it again. It appears as if though she is very happy without me in her life anymore. She is always around friends and is always smiling. So I dont even know if it is worth her time to come back.